Saturday, September 22, 2007

happy bday D!
lalala....



























maybe it's time to cut the hair!
......

Thursday, September 20, 2007

'why no comforting presence, no warmth,
no eyes which shine with love and pride,
only father leads the little one, who follows,
confused, empty and alone.
yet go it must, for to be alone in the great ocean is to die.
the child must follow the man longing, yearning, hoping for recognition,
but none comes....
who is here to find and hold?
who is there to love and comfort?
no one emerges from the quietness, the blackness.
there is only silence, more profound than death,
silence and nobody there.... '








there falls no shadow when there shines no sun.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

i got crazy studying...
so i took a break...
look at the amount of books...
mami said, 'look at your table, like you're studying for university..'

i know i'm not!
but i need them as references.
though i have to admit i like the fact that i'm reading so much..
HAHA.
inner nerd.
shh...
though what i really want to do is finish up my tess gerristen's the mephisto club!

jans...

very happy for the fact that she sprain her knee..

which reminded of my previous wound...

lalallalala.......
but i wasnt a baby about it.
i clean my own wounds!
>_<
i'm a GIRL! when it comes to physical pain threshold.
lalalala
cause man, or guys, they whine when i cleaned their wounds...
like hairy jer, a few patients i attended too... and YOU!



okay, back to school stuff.
i must finish up my documentation for physical assessment.

had been too weak over the past 2 days.
damn.
deal with it jaz.

jans sprain her knee.
badly.
i think i spent 2-3 hours with her and mami at the sin seh's...
had onlooking stares when i piggyback her home.
she asked if she was heavy...
she's 45kg..
anyway, i said to her, i'm not your a dragonboater for nothing.
she replied 'and you're not my sister for nothing. '
=)


no matter what your mama says in a fit of anger, she still loves you.
our home is not perfect, it's somewhat broken, but it's still family.


okay, back to school stuff..












i'll keep you safe, i'll keep you warm...

i was the test subject for monday's tutorial.
cause no one else wanted their deepest darkest pain or problem to be out in the open.
i knew what i was in for..
and i could read them all, and i was right about how they reacted.
it's funny in a way cause i knew what they were going to say...

she's the quiet one amongst the rest, yet i knew she's the only one who can see my pain, and who empathized with me.
i knew the pain inside, but never thought it'll hurt like this.
the rest were hard-hearted, they just ask questions and make statements just to fulfill what is asked for by the lecturer... i dont sense humanity at all..
and my god, they're all nurses, or rather we're...


weird dream last night.
it felt as if he was still mine to hold...
i'm darn sleepy again.

tmr.

Monday, September 17, 2007

okay a quick one.
warning though, this will be a very 'bimbotic' entry.
HAHAHA..

sudden craze, shanye ward..
he's so differnt now!
but still cute. only cuter.
i'm high on his new song. it's a different feeling.
lalala..
i'm mad.
here's the difference.









i noticed that i've got this thing for balddies?


shayne ward.

wentworth miller.

keanu reeves in Speed. one of my favourite movies.

and of course, the matrix.

maddness.

i need sleep!

" Ungku - what is ♥ " says:
well.... since yer in it.... just gotta suck it up...

suck it up.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

i wish the weekend didnt end so quickly.
so then i dont have to be reminded of school.
i really dread it..
and driving too.
i dislike him... =X

why did i cause so much trouble or problem for myself?
i could have happily finish up the last year of bond, then move on..
maybe to work in aus...
too late to regret now.


i enjoyed the sava sprints more last year than this year...
as the whole team gets to row cause it's a 24 men crew race.
and each one of us, complements each other's strength.
even the aquafortis didnt manage to beat us then.

oh, the past, the past.
why am i always living in the past....

move on, deal with it.
dont you know, i tried. and i tried..
but i cant get you off my mind.
and it dont get no better as each day goes by..........................








blabbering...
harsh reality starts again tmr.