Saturday, July 14, 2007
dessert with winston @ i forget the name of the place but it's at Paragon.
lovely beautiful cakes!
i was dressed in full PPE at the decom area..
wendy's birthday and resignation dinner @ Fish & Co. Glass house.
i gonna miss her so much..
SL too! someday, i leave here and work overseas too..
look at how fair amanda is.
-_-
jazmine @ 00:08
Friday, July 13, 2007
had a long day..
but a fulfilling and happy one.
didnt except to meet uncle kee in the morning while pastor was briefing me about my BAPTISIM TMR!! =)
anyhow, i was very touched when he asked for permission to sit in and share his experiences with me..
after the session, he sent pastor off to SYHS and me home.. but he asked if i wanted to accompany him to the ARC in woodlands.. and without hesitation i said yes.
i don't know why i said that, i just did.
HAHA..
the elderly there were so cute!! especially the aunty i was acquanited to..
she's the hyperactive one..
haha..
i was drained, but i enjoyed the experience.
then one of uncle's colleague was too fast to react by giving me the volunnteer form to fill up!
haha..
and most think that i'm his daughter...
and one sir said i was very good because i spoke hokkien, mandrain and english.. then later to find out that i'm actually singaporean chinese. -_-
i ought to keep myself fairer..
then i met jans for dinner, and she said grace with me for the first time..
am truly touched too..
i'm beginning to see the wonderful works that's happening to my life..
i just pray that i'll turn out to be what He wants me to be.
i quote from jilin. // * faith makes all things possible. love makes them easy //
jazmine @ 23:15
Thursday, July 12, 2007
an interesting article i stumble across while researching for literature..
i'm sleep deprived.
i'm cramping.
i'm bleeding.
i'm having a cold.
i've super dark eye circles.
i'm going crazy.
Tuesday, April 3rd, 2007
A popular book suggests women are from another planet… they are certainly different from us chaps. Failure to understand that women are different can even kill a female patient - did you know that injudicious salt – poor intravenous fluids are much more likely to cause cerebral oedema, convulsions and death in menstrual age women than adult males? The difference appears to be related to the effects of female sex hormones on sodium pump mechanisms in brain cells
1.We males in the profession live with a tradition founded by blokes – kudos, prestige, status (even if under constant attack), an ethos that can put work and career above all else, generally good incomes etc. The down side can be broken marriages and estranged, rebellious kids who really needed a dad, not a medical workaholic. Women doctors have to cope in this man-made environment but, unless they are single, have to be homemakers and mothers too. There may not be enough hours in the day to do all this.
Yet few males seem interested in understanding a woman’s perspective on work and career. In 1996 I attended the World Meeting of Anaesthetists in Sydney, a huge affair with 10,000 delegates ably run by my old dissecting buddy, Professor Richard Walsh from Royal Prince Alfred Hospital. Richard’s team had listed a seminar on “Gender Issues” . Interested, I attended. It was certainly a treat being in the same room as about 500 intelligent , attractive women. The lady chairperson rose to welcome the audience, making special mention of the men who were present – all two of us, the other being the famous pioneer Swedish anaesthetist, Torsten Gordh ( of Gordh needle fame). Where, I pondered, were all the Directors of Departments or Training, half of whose charges these days are likely to be female? Maybe a sleep inducing talk on muscle relaxant infusions was a safer course than being seen at a sissy seminar for the girls. They should have been hearing how the ladies tried to cope with competing demands of work, specialist training, spouse, children and household.
A “stand out” at the Gender Issues session and the Conference generally was a lady Professor from Nigeria. Tellingly she said, “I’m a Professor of Anaesthesia and my husband is Professor of Medicine. We drive to the same hospital in the one car, both do our day’s work, then drive home together. Whereupon he relaxes on the couch and puts his feet up while I start cooking the family dinner.” (Her husband had the presence of mind to stay in Nigeria and not attend this seminar!).
Career women seem to have one thing in common with the male obstetricians care for them – all are chronically sleep deprived and exhausted and all for good reason. Without meaning any disrespect, this may be why our obstetricians and many women doctors (not all) have been relatively weak in fighting assaults on the profession by governments – they are simply just too tired. Survival and sleep are their greater concerns.
We live close to a busy suburban rail station. For years I’ve watched the commuters, from Sydney’s northwest mortgage belt, park the car at an early hour, dash for the train, then reappear at dusk for the drive home. They all look tired and stressed but the women have not only the briefcase to bear – there’s the hastily bought food shopping for the hungry family waiting at home. No arm chair and slippers await these women.
When head of my Anaesthetic Department some years back, I was asked politely by a lady anaesthetist if I could reduce her roster commitment. I did one better for her – I took her off the roster entirely for a long period. She had recently returned to work after the birth of her third child and she was chronically exhausted. To risk an anaesthetic disaster at a 3 am Caesarean because she was exhausted was in no one’s best interest. Yet for this I was loudly and publicly criticized by a few younger male colleagues. I stood my ground. One male surgeon I’ve heard of does lots of extra on call duty – his colleagues only too happy to relinquish the chore. Of course, his resident is then faced with twice the after care load of other surgical teams. If that resident happens to be a woman with a family, is it right that they all should suffer from “Sir’s” workaholic disorder? I think not.
Sure, women are not all angels – ask any guard in a women’s prison. They can be cunning, seductive and manipulating. They can turn on the tears with great effect. But if they have a family, or wish to start one, or even if they don’t, their priorities can be quite different from those of single minded males. So what if they can only give 30 or 40 skilled hours a week to the profession and not 70? If it takes two women to manage as many patients as one male, so what? The girls already pay big prices for competing in a man’s world. Limiting or delaying a family is one. A higher risk of breast cancer through delayed beast feeding is another. A third is a two to four fold risk of suicide in women doctors compared to the general female population.
We males could learn a thing or two from the ladies about priorities in life. Sure we need our dedicated hard working male medicos. But over the years I’ve seen more than one who thought he was indispensable drop dead prematurely. Next day, someone else is there taking over – business as usual. And the grieving children all wish they seen a bit more of Dad.
1 Arieff I, Hyponatraemia,convulsions, respiratory arrest and permanent brain damage after elective surgery in healthy women. NEJM Vol 1314 No 24 June 12, 1986, p 15292 BBC News (Internet) 10 April 20013 Schernhammer ES & Colditz, G. Suicide Rates among physicians: a quantitative and gender assessment. Am Journal of Psychiatry 2004 Dec; 161 (12) 2295 - 302
Jim Wilkinson is a retired Sydney anaesthetist. He has enjoyed 30 years of wedded bliss and has four adult children, three of them daughters. He assists the NSW Medical Board with supervising impaired doctors.
Labels: One Man’s Word On Women Doctors…
jazmine @ 22:09
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
sacrifice. if you want to improve, you have to sacrifice. i hear it all the time...i'll be 100 bucks that she was talking about me on the way back.i don't need anyone of you to feel sorry for me, cause i don't feel sorry for myself either.i just feel that i'm pathetic.maybe my rowing lifespan is up.don't get me wrong, i'm happy with the girls.but maybe not rowing anymore... it's getting fearful now. and sometimes, the harder i fight back, the worst my bruises are..but i just cant let the virus infect me now..because i don't want him to feel disappoinment again. cause he deserve something more. he worked so hard for it, and he made us too... i'm not quite sure i know what i'm talking about.just don't fucking talk to me about sacrifices and potray that the few of you are saints.
jazmine @ 17:21
stress from school seems to be taking a toll on me, if not, it must be my raging hormones. PERIODS COMING!!
but i think it's embarassingly stupid for me to break down during rowing just now.
i hope i didnt scare off ML. it's her second trg with us only!
i really am trying hard to get the stroke that ST wants.
somehow, they just don't turn out right.
sigh...
i am really strong on the surface, but not all the way through.. especially emotionally.
i know what she thinks of me.
WEAK. and i know that she doesnt like me.
but i still respect her anyhow. she's probably the childish one who reacts this way..
whatever.
so how did i de-stress?
I SNIPPED OFF MY FRINGE!
now i look like jans = retard. =X
first day of attachment tmr.
please be with me.
thank you.
i miss jo, hid, ade, esther, hai, xan , jil, candy, kyle, uncle kang, jem, reu, JL, round2, ifah, yati, zuuz, mabel, zhiqing, diana, sher, wendy, karen, carol, jinxiang, mama mim, SH, the juniors, esp Ja..
jazmine @ 00:00
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
on a higher note, we were doing on perceptions today.
we're suppose to write how we perceive the other members, in 5-6 words, an animal, a musical instrument, and either a fruit or food.
and guess what are the few things the others thought about me...
YH: you're friendly, loud ..... blah blah blah.. and i feel that you're a CHIMPANZEE!!! because you're very hyper active. O_O, a drum and a cherry cause you're very cheerful.
EA: you're...... a SQUIRREL. 0_O because you're very active, and a squirrel is small and cute.. and you're a guitar because a guitar is usually brought around during campfires and they bring everyone together... and i forgot what fruit i was.
DN: you're a dog, i want to specify golden retriever, because it's very friendly towards people, and a piano.. and a strawberry because you're sweet.. HAHA.
PF: you're a Jack Russell, because they're very hyper. then i can't remember i'm a drum or guitar.. and i'm a watermelon. because i'm always smiling..
it's weird that they don't notice that actually, i'm very quiet too.. when i dont talk when i dont need too.. and it's obvious that even though we're from the same hospital, we dont stick as close as we should..
blah.
it's 0032. lessons at 0800.
God bless me.
i dreamed i was missing,
you were so scared..
but no one would listen
cause no one else cared.
after my dreaming,
i woke with this fear...
what am i leaving,
when i'm done here...
so if you're asking me, i want you to know...
when my time comes,
forget the wrong that i've done.
help me leave behind some reasons to be missed...
don't resent me,
when you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory...
leave out all the rest..
leave out all the rest..
don't be afraid,
i've taken my beating..
i've shared what i've made.
i'm strong on the surface..
not all the way through.
i've never been perfect.
but neither have you.
so if you're asking me, i want you to know...
forgetting..
all the hurt inside you learned to hide so well..
pretending.
someone else can come and save me from myself...
i can't be who you are..
linkin park - leave out all the rest
i'm seeking refuge in You.
jazmine @ 00:03
Monday, July 09, 2007
i'm falling asleep everywhere... -_-otanjoubi omedetou..
jazmine @ 01:30
Sunday, July 08, 2007
had a headache in the morning when we visited sgh major operating theatre.
it's massive and messy.
i'm sorry.
but it iss! and i think i'm gonna die in my AU posting.
=(
anyway, the new baby is here!
i named her black-head. because she's of black top.?
haha.
made jans to accompany me to watch this musical..
it was good! the lead actress must have been from stage arts? she has a lovely singing voice.
enlai was just awesome!
irene ang looks hot. i want to go to marine france bodyline too..
haha...
the music arrangements were great too! felt the strong presence of his element.
and it's fate that we bump into each other.
anyway, just so all of you know. it really isnt easy to be in the nursing profession especially all you want to do is to care for them, but often they think otherwise..
cant continue anymore... my eyes are failing me!
the raging hormones are causing the hydrocholride acid to build up.
trg starts tmr again! and i havent been running for the past week! i'm so gonna die.
lalallalala
quote of the day: deal with it!
jazmine @ 00:48