Friday, December 08, 2006

He has been watching over me these days.
>_<

going mad at work.
and that's how the fun comes in at times too.

long long LONG day tmr.
i'm so excited!
muahahaha...













to the left, to the left.

exhausting day.
sometimes, it does sucks when you're good at your work.

i'm beginning to see the digusting and selfish side of some people. or most people rather.
how they suck up to surgeons, kiss their stinky ass, just to get into their good books.
it's so fcuking disgusting.
it's so damm disgusting that everytime i see and feel it, my stomach starts churning, and i just got to focus on something else, otherwise i'll throw up.

maybe this has always been there, but i'm just too naive to notice it.
sigh.

and there's a limit to the amount of dumbness i can take from some people..

sigh.
am turning into a grouchy old grams.




very tempted to take mc tmr.
but she'll be left to face the battle alone.
no way.











weird dreams, funny scents.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

busy and tiring day.
esp when it's 7-4.
walked sister su back to her desk as she's still recovering from her meniscus surgery.
big sister was on the phone walking, when she saw us, stopped us.
and said to sister su, " you notice jaz is such a sweet and kind person? she's just like my daughter. and my daughter is out of town, and everytime i look at jaz, she reminds me of my daughter."

honestly, i'm speechless.

i'm not trying to say i'm all good and such.
but yeah, no matter how much i dislike a person, i'll still help them if they're in need.
dammit.
i'm weird anyway...

sigh.
i think i'll break big sister's heart if she knows that i'm leaving..... ...

and i'm learning how to say no now.




the thought of flying still lingers...
and i'm reminded of the walk we had that day.
i wish sometimes i hadnt tasted how sweet love can be....


i'll just leave it in His hands.
as the old saying goes ' if it's meant to be, it's meant to be'




detoxed.








maybe baby....

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

i'm aching from this morning weights trg.
*pouts*

the advance dip bond has reduced to 2 years now....
so might be considering about it, if i dont have enough money to do the degree and adv. dip overseas.
hahaha.
so better start saving sucker!
=)



bonus is coming in on the 18th.
;p




i miss you, you, you and YOU.


sleep.
this is probably one of the earliest time that i'm off to bed.










what will you do?

oh yes...
janice's new hair style.
bird nest style.
>_<

Monday, December 04, 2006

was suppose to do a premiere case today at 1730.
but it turns out the patient decided to be admitted as subsidized class.
therefore it was cancelled.

it was good in a way, cause i was damm tired even though shift's only from 8-3.30.
had to run inbetween theatres to help out.

so i decided that i'll train today since i'm working afternoon tmr...
asked coach about the programme.

he txt back to go for a 2km jog and do conditioning with weights.
light weight of 15kg... O_O
LIGHT WEIGHT OF 15 KG?!?!
checked with him again whether was it 7kg each side or lighter.

he replied, 5kg + 2.5kg each side.
O_O

7.5KG EACH SIDE IS NOT LIGHT TO ME!!!

oh well, thought i'll nap for a little while first.
woke up at 2030 in the end.
XD
went for a short run instead.
used knee guard this time.
sigh..



told sis su about my appointment that day.
she agreed with the fact that i shouldnt walk up the stairs, run up, down slopes and stuff.
but how could i not?
i dislike waiting for the lifts and in a way it means no more walking home from novena through that route.
anyhow, she asked whether my knee was important or doing sports was more important.
................


oh well, we'll talk about it a year and a half later....
so ya, physio treatment now.
-_-






wmp's on shuffle mode.
and that song just lifted me more.


trg season starts again tmr.
gonna go mad canoeing.










it was a slight miscalculation.

Sunday, December 03, 2006

the timings are for the time trials are out.
these are mine:

1st set :1.36.78
2nd set :1.31.98
average :1.34.38


damm, if only LWK allowed me to warm up properly before my 1st set, with BY coxing for me.
but anyway, it's cause of BY's guidance i did well for my 2nd set.
she's someone i look up to alot in the team.

am ranked 5th amongst the 38.
XD
honestly, a pleasant surprise.


running still sucks though.
HA!


sleep depth vs sleep debt.
haha.





sweet dreams ****....

interesting e-maili received...

"There was a study done where a control group of 100 people were divided into two. 50 people watched a very funny, tears-of laughter type movie. 50 watched a very sad and tears of compassion type movie.

At the end of the sessions researchers collected the "happy tears" and the "sad tears" with eye droppers. They found that "happy tears" are made up of brine...salt water and not a great deal else.

However the "sad tears" were found to contain the very same chemicals and enzymes that are found in tumors, ulcers and other such lumps and bumps and sicknesses through out the body.

This test concluded that the body, when crying in sadness etc is literally flushing out all of the toxic-chemicals that accumulate and are a part of the sadness /heartache experience. Therefore if one holds back those tears, those toxic-waters will find somewhere else to deposit themselves... .

and prolonged lack-of-crying-release will guarantee that the body will accumulate a huge amount of internal pollution and toxicity that should have been released through the tears........

is it any wonder that the eyes sting so much when we hold back our tears?"


LESSON FROM THE STUDY: CRY YOUR HEART OUT WHEN YOU ARE SAD, LONELY, ALONE, DEPRESSED, ETC.....

IT IS GOOD FOR YOUR HEALTH!








i wonder anyway, ............

i ought to be showered and headed for bed.
but i'm stucked here.
haha.

anyway this is for you. >_<






















take a bow.

cousin was simply gogeous last night.
some guy mistaken me for his friend and tried to rub his goatee on my shoulder.
silly. XD

met them again, but this time they cant regconize me.
i look different they say.
hmm...



ear worm.
to the left, to the left....
i'm hooked to stupid songs. as someone would say.



i was out the whole day before i came to work.
=X





















irreplaceable