Thursday, November 02, 2006

it shows it all over my face when i'm irritated.
dammit.
argh!
let's pray that it'll be better tmr.
cause it'll be my turn to scrub.



oh well..
anyway, cous looked so hot!
aww...
i still think no matter how gorgeous or beautiful you are on the outside, as long as you suck on the inside. YOU'RE UGLY.


........
i dont know why i like to torture myself sometimes.
maybe because the pain sometimes remind me of those precious moments we had.
HA.

i like it when i scare others with my popping valves.

okay, i'm getting irritated with those new msn custom emotions.


met cloudy during my short run just now.
HA.







smile at work today baby.

i fell asleep on the couch last night till 4 am, before i headed upstairs for bed.
the weirdest thing?
i brushed my teeth, disturb jans a little then i fell asleep.
haha.


hairy and jans made me laugh non-stop this whole afternoon.
=)
it's been a while since we spent time like this together.


anyway, took a short nap before training.
before i knew it, it was raining.
honestly, if the rain didnt stop. i'll forgo training, and carry on sleeping.
=X

BUT anyway, i got my ass there.
weights. did 5 kg instead of my usual 4.
haha.
hey, it's 40 reps x 2 sets of clean and jerk!
coach wrote down rowing simulation after weights. so we thought, oh, dry run.
in the end it's rowing itself... -_-
sigh.
he says my legs are too long.
and damn, i better get it right soon..

extra cash tmr. =)
cousin's preview show tmr at raffles, 7 pm.
go root for her ya! it's for the Female 50 gorgeous people thingy.
lalala....





i love the songs from evanescence's new album, the open door.
they speak to me.
anyway, go buy that album!




i'm holding on to that thought. =)

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

finished the 10k in 1:08:16 which put me in the placing of no. 698 out of 1846 paticipants.
...
anyway, the aim was to finish the race. didnt train for it anyway!
>_<
the australian lady, completed the course in 0:38:06.
WOW.
she can beat any guy any time.

i'm amazed that i survived sunday.
5 hours of sleep,
GE 10k run at 7.30 trg.
coxing for 4 hours.
home, showered, dinner.
work.
anyway had 10 hours of sleep for the past 2 days.
i suppose it's enough to compensate.


my back is aching like hell.
damn.
still too skinny on top.
should try sleeping upside down.

cloudy was talking about how everything will change.
and the only thing will never change is change itself.
everyday we're changing.
the cells in our body, the trees along the road...
so she said that we should live for the moment. and everyday, from sunrise to sunset, try to do things that make us happy.
make everyday worth it.

then she ask me, 'what makes you happy?'
...
the first thing that came into my mind was him.
but that wasnt going to happen anymore.


so i said, ....................
and she asked me to stop dragonboating and do it.
i'm so motivated!
so ya, i'm gonna do it. =)

it's like what mr ray always say, ' don't just say it, DO IT!'
there's this chinese saying cloudy kept mentioning ' bu zai hu tian chang di jiu, zhi zai hu ceng jing yong you.'
it means something like, 'it doesn't matter if it doesn't last forever, as long as you had that moment.'

she said that i should be happy that i was once loved by him. even though i don't have him anymore.


i know, and i am.
it just happens to bring me tears.