Saturday, September 16, 2006

this is what happens when you're bored while attending a seminar.



you take photos... and you begin to reminisce.....













'come over here' he said to me..

Friday, September 15, 2006

it's raining it's pouring on a friday morning................












WHATEVER.

it was just so busy busy busy at work.
dr cheena burger wasnt in the mood for fun today, he seems troubled. therefore the mood.
dr dreamy eyes 1 is posted to his unit this 3 months. so i'll be seeing him if i'm at the theatre on thursday... though he's irritating, he made my day somehow.


we did 4 sets of 15 mins rowing. increasing the intensity as each set pass... and standing on the last one. THEN, she has to appear, it's freaking 9 o'clock!! you shouldnt have come at all!!
then he made us do 6 - 8 sets of standing strokes. but that's not all, we did 3 x 30 sets of clean and jerk. yes, it's such a jerky excercise.
i suppose i was being a little of a brat just now. just felt very pissed and irritated. s'rene was right when she said that i didnt have enough sleep and that i'm about to explode anytime.
too much have been going on for me on this week...




it's 3.12 am. and i'm still awake.






anyway, i manage to catch the repeat telecast of supernova. and it's sad that lukas won!... sucks sucks sucks.

toby rand is just so adorable!!!
i'm reminded of what i said to hid before.
dream guy vs perfect guy.



okay, now it's 3.37am.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

it was so busy today, that i had 5 mins of dinner just in time only to finish up the beans.
sleep.











it's the third day... someone please shoot me.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

it really stinks in the morning, if you havent slept well over the night.
was stoning throughout the whole day at work, and the eyes felt a little sore from the after effects again...

i'm glad i got my patience back at work.. i just needed to reflect on how i want to be treated, to treat others the same way i would like too.. and life's too short to be piss all the time i suppose, why not just have fun and laugh it off....

i'm still good at putting up a good front, i need too.
i need to take away all distractions to keep myself focus, cause i cant afford to make any mistakes.
i need to be strong for myself, to also set an example to the juniors.
eventhough i'm only a year old plus...

nc asked me why dont i want to go for advance diploma again... then asked me about my plans for my future..
told her about plan A, save up and go study overseas.
she said that i would have to save a lot, and that her non-sponsored friends hated those who were sponsored, cause all they do is eat, they didnt need to care about housing, school fees and they were given monthly allowance... her non-sponsored friends on the other hand, live only from maggie mee everyday....

........
then she mentioned about plan B, working overseas... i think it'll be awesome. in a way. haha..
at least the docs there respect nurses more. we're like slaves here. always following orders, we cant get to decide anything. then what for the module on nursing care plans for the patients?
the only thing is i'll probably miss home a hell lot.

it's nice that to know that some still knows what's your worth, and they're trying everything they can to keep you with them. =)
i think she's trying to cross train me over to the paeds side.
lovely. i love children, but i'm not sure if i can handle sick children, cause my heart will ache for them.
but cardiac. gosh, it'll be so damm stressful. she probably thought that i can handle stress very well? but not really!!

then there's other plans of changing my career pathway... you'll never know until you try.
at least, you tried therefore, no more excuses for regrets.
we'll see.....


anyway, took rocky out for a run today... his stamina is far worst that night's or buddy's.. had to turn back at the bridge.. he's still a little unfriendly....

did weights again.. sometimes, like ade, i really would just want to disintegrate them.. no more weights! yay!
but it's the after effects of gym that keeps me going actually. =X

partnered with D, the sacral area sustain bad abrasions from 50 x 3 sets of sit-ups.
so when we came to front thrust, i needed to put my weight on my right butt cheek, cause my sacral area, which is my center point is badly bruised.
that wasnt the worst thing that happened today, the worst was when the ball hit my left temporal bone, the next moment i knew, i was lying on my side.
my knees suffered a little too when we were doing side twistings.....
was cheered up when trg ended cause D brought chocolate biscuits fomr Mark's & Spencer's.
yeah, yeah, so much for trg. so what!
>_<
wani's right about how food is tasted at it's best when it's shared..






it's nice to see that the both of them are getting along again.
otherwise, i'll be the one being torn inbetween.











oh, we're not going to jinan dao anymore. ... maybe hangzhou in nov.
i just need to wait and see what are His plans for me...

i find myself listening to his songs... crying...






















never sleep...
... never die...

made jo watch monster house with me. it was nice! but she fell asleep...
should have gone with the devil wears prada even though i've watched it, cause cartoons reminds me of him.......

met up with round2 and ily after that... crap, i'm still not use to calling him by his name nor mr ray.
he said i look anorexic.. biach.
it's so nice to have one of your buddies working in quicksliver and roxy cause they can get up to 40 - 50 % discount for all the merchandise i think.
i love shopping with the both of them, cause they give me their honest comments even though it's not what i like to hear... and they pick clothes out for me too...
lalalala... they're like girlfriends to me, like i'm a guyfriend to them..
.....


i wonder if other girls have such close guy friends.
who you can hold hands with at the same time punch each other too without feeling awkward...
i remember there was once, during jamming, ily tried to sing, it was so funny.. i started laughing very hard, and he came and headlock me... and i got choked so hard, till the tears were falling from my eyes.
i knew he was playing. but i could have died. he's so damm strong for goodness sake!
he cracked a glass panel when he was push against to.
=X

oh well, they lifted me up today.
tmr's the day they'll announce whether a not we'll be going to china.











argh! i hate fighting for that extra min of sleep everyday.

Monday, September 11, 2006

jo, D, hid and mr ray made my day.

ever try holding back your tears?
difficult isnt it?
especially as the sadness is growing deep inside you, and you start to feel a little insecure...
finally it's like you keep blowing into a almost full blown balloon, then suddenly it bursts..

you know for sure, it's not going to stop no matter how hard you try to control....
so when everyone in the bus sees your teary eyes, when they all gave you a look, when they focus their attention on you...
you dont fucking care..
and you dont fucking care about the post crying trauma...
which includes sore eyes, dehydration, exhaustion, and moodlessness...

thank god i'm not working tmr.










was hoping he came after me... so that he could have seen what he has broken....
but hell, i'm not in the list of priorites anyway.















make up your damm mind.