Friday, July 21, 2006

it's not true that i had a sucky day.
it was crazy at work cause i had to relieve others as i was 'free', but i enjoyed it still. i was in luck rather, cause i was in the emergency theatre and there wasnt any case till 1530. and i knock off at 1600 so i didnt have to take the case..
>_<

i was heading for training, and as usual, i'm too lazy to take the overhead bridge, so i decided to j-walk. there was this granny too, beside me, waiting for the cars to clear so that she could cross over.
see the thing is the cars didnt seem to stop coming. i did something which came out so unexpectingly, i reached out for her hands and guided her across the road. think i surprised her too. haha..
it just felt so nice after that.


the sucky part of the day happened during and after training.
shan't comment on it.
i suppose what cloudy said was true about selecting what and who is it you wanna hear from.



OH NO! i'm falling asleep again infront of the com.
shrugs.

Monday, July 17, 2006

i hate it when i'm not able to block myself from being depress and emotional at home.
then i'll just flare up at anyone. especially mummy and janice.
every little thing will just irritates me.
mummy should have slapped me just now.
at least i have every reason to cry.

now i feel so bad talking aloud back at her.
fuck.
she just wants to love me.
and that's what i really need.





you're killing me softly.

hsut pu ucaes etesw otignhn rea sueslse.

i should get fat and go into belly dancing instead.
it'll probably be more fun and it would be okay to be flabby and fat.

saw pervert darren in the morning, and it got me excited cause there's this little 'hope' that he'll turn up too.
to my disappoinment once again he didnt.
i'm going insane.
coach kept pointing out how much i yawn in the boat, and how my strokes are hasten when i'm counting while rowing, and such.
i yawn alot cause i control my breathing during the sets, otherwise i'll be panting so badly when we stop.
thus the lack of oxygen intake into the bloodstream, causes me to yawn.

i didnt like it when he said that we should all go back and sleep.
it is not funny even if you meant it in a jokingly manner.
some might think it's pointless to pace with each other cause we lost to them before and the result might be the same.
but unless we fight, we wouldnt know. and it is for coach too. you cant tell, but i know how he feels inside.
otherwise, if not for the fact training days have increased, i'm not complaining.
afterall this is what i wanted.
but now..........................
i'm .....









like crying, when the clouds has reach it's limit for the accumlation of water vapour, it'll rain.