Saturday, March 11, 2006

i'm so irritable these days.
crap.

was doing the laundry on mummy's behalf as she's in thailand again.
how i envy her.
anyways, i guess i know why she's so mad at times, cause she's being taken for granted in some ways.
how i wish janice would know how it's like hanging over 10 pairs of socks.
there were times i wish i was a boy, so that i dont have to do household chores and such.

i dont know why that thought came into my head.
it's probably true that i might have time for a part-time degree, a driving licence, dating and such.
but i'll probably be as fat as i can be too.

pardon me.
i'm blabbering.

i guess i'm just so pissed that i changed my shift. and that i've go tto self train alone.
and it sort of ruin the plans i had in mind.
but i cant help it, i pitied her.
argh.
stop it jaz.
stop it.

Friday, March 10, 2006

i'm tired.
damm tired....................
sigh.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

today's session went well.
evelyn's just so patient and sweet.
her house is SO CLEAN.
gosh, we should really bring her to aus if we're gonna study there.


went to spotlight with hid.
it's our new favourite hang out now.
HAHA.



i dont know to love or hate him at times.
he drives me nuts.
actually it's so hard to be mad at him whenever we meet cause i've missed him so much and am just so excited to see him.
sigh.
that ass..





he caught me by surprise just now.
how sweet.


and i'll be dancing again.
i'm having butterflies in my stomach.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

nowadays, i can fall asleep almost anywhere..
in front of the com, while watching tv, during quiet time, and while reading.
i feel so sad for myself.
it's pathetic.



work wasnt all that good today either, it's been really busy.
at times, i wonder wherer
sigh.




oh well, on a lighter note.
cloudy came for trg today!
missed her.
that silly woman, who says that i've got a vixen voice.
....
anyway, she's so proud of me that i improved in canoeing.
=)

chipmunk joined us for rowing too..
i'm trying to be nice to unloving people.

oh and yes, mr ray called to meet me!
how sweet, i really missed him loads too anyway.
it was really nice to see him again....




crap. i'm falling asleep again.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

jo's blog song inspire me.
it also reminded me of the video clip they were playing during the little reception.
i'm so proud of her.

i've had my first holy communion today.
it recalls the table fellowship Jesus shared with his disciples, and in particular the Last Supper on the night before his death as well as his appearances to the disciples during meals following his resurrection.
i feel safe and peacefulness at the sanctuary.
it takes my away from this strange place where i'm temporary living in.
when Pastor Bernerd ask to look beside us and see who we would like to have with us for eternity.
luan2 would be 1 of them.
i'm just so blessed to know her.



it was one of the fiercest msg i ever received from him.
and that i have to read it at the bus stop.
it was so hard trying to hold back the tears.
then it suddenly struck me that i wasnt good enough, cause i didnt know what was going on.
i didnt ask. i was just too oblivous to his responsibilities, schedule, and time..
i guess that's why i try to keep myself very occupied and surrounded with company.
i dread to be alone, thinking, and thinking.
.


i shouldnt be stressing him now..
i'm just blabbering.