Saturday, January 14, 2006

shouldnt have met up with peggy before training to hang out.
i was yawning half the time! and it made her yawn too.. haha.
it's not her fault, but it's just me to tired when i'm out window shopping with a heavy bag before training.

anyway training didnt went as well even though i tired to enjoy it.
had sinus problem last night and the side effects were brought forward to today.
felt so breathless while running, later it was accompanied by stitches at 3 different areas of my abdomen, THEN my KNEES ache. wtf.
i almost gave up, thank goodness lao shi was there to motivate me.

thought that i would have fun canoeing though we had to canoe the triangle way.
BUT NO, coach is targetting me now. he doesnt correct me in a nice way anymore.
he SHOUTS and YELLS at me now.
fuck.
i kept telling myself that he just wants the best for me.. but my mind is resisting it.
i'm just so mad that i cant get the fucking stroke right.
thus, there were times when i just wanted to stop, and cry, throw the paddle away, hoping that i'll capsize and get drown.
but when i saw the girls rowing from afar, i thought about the days where we would encourage each other in the boat. and when i heard them checking, in my heart, i felt as if i was stroking with them too..
and that was what kept me moving.
i miss them badly.

i'm so mad with the nyjc coach too!
he took our trolley to put ONLY ONE KAYAK, which he used, leaving us to carry our canoes back.
wtf.
asshole.
canoes are like ten times heavier than one bloody kayak.

what else?
coach pulled my pony-tail while i did my push-ups to prevent me from looking down..

i'm so drain today.
fucking drain.









dear Father, please make me strong at the broken places. in His name, amen.

so you found a girl who thinks really deep thoughts,
what's so amazing about really deep thoughts?
'boy, you best pray that i'll bleed real soon.'
how's that thought for you?

Friday, January 13, 2006

sigh..
iris just msged that there's funkamania finals tmr at ngee ann city, civic plaza...
and i cant make it! trg tmr.
=(

was having a mini movie marathon yesterday.
watched 13 going on 30 and dirty dancing 2 again.
the lovey-dovey parts made me melt.
sigh...

/sings all i want to do is, all i want to do is dance, and make romance...




i'm so happy for mr ray now! haha.. now that he has found his own too...
i still miss those late night phone calls we had, how we diss each other and struggling each other..
haha.


i'm gonna enjoy FREEDOM for a week. ;p

had my first case of baby management on wednesday..
boy was i nervous. but the baby turn out to be so adorable, which is distracting me from assesing her.
she's was born at 1527, with the weight of 3960g, height of 47cm and head circumference of 29 i think..
hahaha..
times like these makes me wanna have a child of my own.
=)

had been having tom yam ban mian for the past few days...
oh well, what to do, i'm addicted to them. XD


just now was terrible, assisted dr paranoid in a cervical cerclage.. he's fierce. SUPER FIERCE.

i suppose i wont be able to beat my current record of dozing off at 0615.
cause i'm sleepy now.












oh well, leave here i come!
goals to be achieved: train more, spending more time together. cleaning my room?