Saturday, September 10, 2005

everyday is so unpredictable.

work feels more fun when you're on duty with the nicest and most responsible people.
surprisingly, she was kinda nice to me today.
mood swings.

they inspire me. =)















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Friday, September 09, 2005

i'm starting to doubt myself and that is a bad sign.
i've come a long way to think that i'm doing good by nursing the sickly but it's starting to fail me.
cause it's just to fucking stressful to please everyone.
today was the last straw i could take. perhaps it was unprofessional to tear when you're on the job.. but hey, we're all human afterall..
so stop treating me like your fucking slave.
i may be inexperience but not to the extend to receive such comments.
fuck you all.

i'm not okay.
i feel so tired, so alone, so uninspired.


thanks hid, for sending me emo songs..
i miss the babes.


sigh..
emo emo jaz.

Sunday, September 04, 2005

surgeons expect you to read their mind and pass them the correct instrument without telling you. they expect that out of you. if you're lucky, and pass the correct one, nothing will be said. but if you pass the wrong one or you dont know what they want and they had to call for it, you'll get comments like 'oh, i must call for the instrument is it?' or something else.



trainings have been challenging and ......... all the sets and reps can kill.
it was lovely to do crunches while looking up into the dark sky..
thank you for being so patient with me.


have been emotionally unstable these few days.
probably cause of stress? not enough sleep? trg? or simply cause of you? you? and you?
argh.
emo emo jaz.
















could you tell that i'm not quite alright?