Saturday, August 27, 2005

the male surgeons pissed me off today.
how could you prolong the distress of a woman in labour?
assholes.

my last training with them today.
it's time for them to be on their own now. and i'm sure they'll do fine, once they're awake.
and i do hope it'll be sometime soon.

i know i let you down.
all the talks that we had, and the hopes that we shared are tarnished by me.
but i just want to be a junior again, like when i just started. admiring the seniors, pushing myself to do as well as they could and to be motivated just by seeing how self-motivated they are. for that it makes an impact on me.

i'm glad that i made clear of my resolution, whether a not it is the right one, there's no turning back now. i'll just have to experience it.
you all might feel hurt that i'm leaving when you're at the most vulnerable state. you all might feel hurt that i've broke our hopes and dreams.
but if i were to hang on, i'll confuse myself even further, it wasnt easy on me and i know it wouldnt be easy for you either.

perhaps this is what he has planned for me. if you believe.

10 km run tmr?
crap.

Friday, August 26, 2005

if this is what i want.
then so be it.
be strong.
be strong.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

if hid didnt tempt me, i would have missed the trg.
it was fun though. it seems like those days where we push ourselves so hard, together.

choices are always so hard to make.
especially when your heart yearns for both,
i still wanna row with them, but at the same time i want to see how much more i can push myself too.. and also cause of .....................................
i'm feeling so bad and traitor-ish inside...

someone said it's actually really simple.
do i still wanna pursue with them, or i want to try something new?

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

i'm reminiscing again..
sigh..

Monday, August 22, 2005

Knowing everything’s temporary
When we’re all too ready to believe
That all we know was made to shift
While we walk away for bleeding

To list of all the things
We know that wouldn’t last
We know it’d never end
But still we never stopped

We’re holding on
But we know the ledge was
Never made to last
With all the weight of our shadows
Close behind

-faiz-


jazmine. says:
Knowing everything’s temporary
When we’re all too ready to believe

jazmine. says:
i dont really get it.

know this will be temporary says:
ahhhh

know this will be temporary says:
we know

know this will be temporary says:
everythings's temporary

know this will be temporary says:
but w're still too ready to believe

know this will be temporary says:
that

know this will be temporary says:
what we know is not gonna last

know this will be temporary says:
we dun liek to take chances

know this will be temporary says:
our lives based so much on 'temporariness'

know this will be temporary says:
that

know this will be temporary says:
when something happens

know this will be temporary says:
we're too ready too believe

know this will be temporary says:
it wldnt last

know this will be temporary says:
what if it does?

know this will be temporary says:
:)

know this will be temporary says:
When we’re all too ready to believe
That all we know was made to shift

jazmine. says:
now i get it..

was almost late for work today.
cold's still there, body aches, but alas, the sore throat is miraculously gone!
or maybe it was because it hurt so much last night that i woke up in the middle of the night to chew on a lozenges.
went to work in my pjs today! haha.
did change the top and wore a bra.

scrubbed for dr c c. today. he's hmm, nice.
assisting in VH makes me feel like an octupus, i need to practice mounthing the needle with my left hand more..
am so thankful that the SN was scrubbed up with me, i hate to think otherwise.
need to have more confidence in taking cases alone.
i can do it.. I CAN DO IT!

welcome to the real working world, where you get to work with different people, with different personalities and working attitudes.
should have known earlier.

oh yes, to JO! my saviour twice! i was too focus on apologizing that i forgot how much you did!
love ya. >_<






lalalala.....

Sunday, August 21, 2005

oh i dont know when to start...

had a lovely night on friday..

trg was great on sat.
ran to the 2nd bridge for the 1st time.
wanted to stop so badly, hamstrings were aching.. was almost out of breathe.
like jo and mei xuan said, there's pros and cons.
and yes hid! i wanna try!
i'm excited and scared at the same time.
had a wonderful evening later on..
my heart skipped a beat! gosh, it still feels so surreal.
anyhows, i like it there, there's a very homely feeling where everyone knows everybody..

canoing session was COLD today.
i CAPSIZED twice, while trying the T1.
sorry jo for playing a fool when i needed to be serious, but i was trying my best to swim back to shore!
just that the current was too strong..
thanks hid, junwen for trying to save me.
CAMAY! do be more active next time! thank you very much.
met up with the seniors, it was fun chilling with them..
haha..

i do hope my cold and sore throat heals up tmr.
please...
thank you.








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