Thursday, August 18, 2005

i've learnt a lot today. it's been fruitful..
the sad and anguish thought that i first had, when i first found out where my posting was, is gone..
i like it here now.
even though in this crowd of nice people, there are the mean ones.

trg was terrific today!
ben had a surprise fitness test for us. haha.
i must say that i'm happy about my performance today, as compared to the previous ones.
can do better for my 2.4 though.
and one of the main reason why trg was so good today was because, all the girls i adore were present.
it feels just like the good old times. =)
i suggested to hid to make the girls to the 'scream-go-meter'.
haha.. evil me.
gonna do better next time!

for every bit of goodness, comes something really bad.
will these problems be never-ending?
sigh..

oh yes, i'm out! like YAY!














cant wait for tmr.
lalalalalala... >_<

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

so the past 2 days sucked.

' i heard you and i'll do better next time.'
'i heard you too, and i'll prove you wrong.'

trying to get myself together again.
i can do it. i can do it!
thanks hid and ass.

the surgeon made my day today.
how sweet of him.. he was patient and nice.
but shant be too hopeful, cause they have their mood swings too..

i'm looking forward to the weekends.
the result shall be revealed tmr. and my guess is joy is in.
am crossing my fingers for her. she's got a beautiful voice.







i need more sleep

Sunday, August 14, 2005

just talked to shivvy!
how nice.. missed her loads.
esp our emo canal talks.

felt so uneasy and pissed during trg yesterday..
it's just so weird trg without ben's directions and guidance..
and most of all, without the girls..
the sprinting sets werent that good too, like jo said his comments were heart aching.

PISSED, am always PISSED during warm ups and cool downs.
why? cause the counting sucks.
even stupid dennis was playing a fool.
sigh..

BUT mummy made me grin from ear to ear when i came back to find the prezzies she bought for me!
how sweet... i'm so touched. she thought about me all the time.
=)
she said i'll love it there at gold coast. cause it's such a beach-y place, and they sell most of what i really like there..
she also mention that luckily i didnt manage to go with her, cause i'll probably cause her to be bankrupt.
...

was pissed today yet again..
1. couldnt get the bloody boat straight.
2. the kayaking coach said i did smth which i did not.
3. was bloody piss when all that happened.

sorry xany baby! it's just so me to lose my cool when i'm pissed.

went to holland v with sher today..
how fun! haha, cheap clothes and pretty stuff, most of all, cute ang mohs.
we went into this cheena-indo furniture shop.
most of the stuff there are beautiful, i just happen to love woodcrafts and canes so much.
sher said she cant wait to get married, and for me? i just cant wait to be a home owner.
i'm loving soft linen. HA!
we talked alot, and it's nice talking to sher cause she's such a logical person.. she makes me see things my blind spot area doesnt..

i'm feeling guilty. have been eating unhealthyly..
so what do you get when you have mac's, spicy food and junkies for the past few days?
sorethroat.
haha. and tmr's the audition.. lalala.

couldnt believe i felt so emo during the ride home, till i teared.
almost wanted to alight at that stop to ask for a hug.
sometimes you're hot, sometimes you're cold.
i'm feeling so umm... what's the word?
i dont know.
and i'm not feeling any better.

it's so heart aching you at times.
crap.

please let me know that it's real.