Friday, July 08, 2005

hidayah made me smile.
i'm feeling so silly..
oh wells, whatever. haha.









cause when there's you, i feel whole..
and there's no better feeling in the world...
but without you, i'm alone...
and i rather be in love with you...

so we learnt about sponges, sharps and instrument today..
lecture style bores me, hands on interests me..
i read before somewhere there's this saying by confusious that goes:

'tell me and i'll forget, teach me and i'll understand, involve me and i'll remember.'

played the role of the circulating nurse today.. was masked and opened up the requisites, helped serene the scrubbed nurse in gowning.. we mounted needles, passed instruments to 'surgeons' ... it was so much fun!

and yes, there's so MANY surgical instruments to remember... let me see, there's mayo straight and curved scissors, a few different forceps (adson, mcindoe, russian, bonney, toothed and non-toothed.... ), and there's langenbeck retractors, cat's claw (i remember this well. =)) elliot's (they're huge, used for delivering babies.) and such...

nc teo inspires me..
she's such an amazing person to look up too..
there's so much to look forward to, and i know it wont be easy.
but i will do it.
i know i can.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZUUZ!!!

these people rock my world!!

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

let's talk about today again..
had a lecture on neonatal jaundice early in the morning...
then we went to the special care nursery to have a look on how neonates are put on the phototherapy.
sister annie showed us the comfort room... it was so beautiful.. cause it was for neonates who were dying, it was a place where the parents spend time with their baby, before they take in their last breathe..

saw a lot of neonates with feeding tubes and such, they were so small and tiny.. they were 3/4 size from my fingers to my elbow.

sigh..
had to leave there quickly..
i guess i felt this way cause it was my first time.. but i would be stronger if i was posted there. cause i'll be nursing them to make them feel better, rather than being sorry for them.
i know i'll be stronger, cause someone once told me that it is within me.

thanks for asking why.
i guess it just shows in my expression.

felt stress running with the guys. almost died in the end.
will try to go for the last round tmr, and push till the end for push-ups.
had fun during sea rowing.. never really was the pacer before.. haha..

kept changing in and out of OT suit. -_-
but, i'm growing fond of that place, even it feels like north pole all the time.

he's makes me so argh! at times.
asshole.











hgis, fi lnyo i teg ot uhg mih. eohp ot ese mhi mtr. alalal
od uoy nudestanr hte ordws hatt rae mocnig uot fo ym uomht.?
prac.

Sunday, July 03, 2005

and so we've come to our very last lap, and it didnt really turn out the way we wanted too...
or i wanted too...
we were so close.. maybe it wasnt good enough, but according to ben, we met the standard...
didnt wanted to cry about it.. was trying to be strong for the last time..
till uncle kang came up to me and when jo hugged me..

it's a new lap for me now... i'm going try out the secret training i've been planning..
haha..
it's gonna be exciting!

thanks babes for all the fun, joy and tears you all have brought into my 2 years of dragon-boating life.
i love you all... and i believe you'll be stronger the next time around!

remember: no one can make you feel inferior, without your consent.