Saturday, June 25, 2005

i thought i was going to die today. honestly.

it was so damm hot, but the wind was cold.
my chest felt tight, and i felt as if i was having shortness of breath.
still, i put in my best effort, though i would have done better on days when i'm well.

last sea trg tmr.
shrugs.
the long dreaded working career starts on friday.
shrugs.

crap.
i'm feeling sea sick now.

fuck.
i just realise i LOST ALL his msgs.
cause why? my batt was low just now, and i changed my sim card with bass.
i'm such a dumb ass.
FUCK!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!

fuck.

i'm feeling so miserable now.
fuck.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

crap.

sore throat's gone, but am down with fever.
my hypothalamus must have gone haywired from the drastic change of temperature.
sigh..

feeling sleepy again.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

ok, so i get to use the com till 11.30 only.

what a pleasant surprise.
i'm speechless..
such an ass.. =)

i guess i was too tired yday that's why that thought came to my head.
gosh, i'm ashamed of myself.
i can do it, I CAN DO IT!
i'm strong, i'm strong...

helped ade to dreadlock hid's hair today..
one strand for an hour? haha..
ran with ade today.
was observing the surroundings.
didnt realise it's so FREAKING NEAR!
everytime from 300-200 m mark, i'll speed up, then i'll slow down after that so that i take a longer look..
AH!!!!! i'm going crazy..

hahaha.
i'm happy.
lalalala...

tanning tmr with qing, iris, diana and sher? haha
miss those babes.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

it's been an unbelievable week...
there's this touch of sadness where i am indulging in it's sweetness.
sigh..











lets run away to australia! =)

spent time with jo and hid yday.
oh how we were tempted with unhealthy food..
haha.

went marketing with mummy and daddy in the morning.
wanted them to send me to kallang. HA
daddy kept asking if i wanted to eat fried kway tiao, or fishball noodles.
like DAD! it's unhealthy! how can you suggest that to your 'somewhat-health-conscious-daughter-cum-missy'!
he was being sweet anyway.. had beancurd in the end, less sugar he requested. =)
i FORGOT that today's FATHER's DAY!
gave him a peck on the cheek as a pressie.
ha.

sea trg for both days were good.. what jo said was right, we've achieve our best set, but we got to do it on our own only.
i realised how much i miss the mix team! sitting behind uncle kang, disturbing the guys, and they irritating me, the boat surging, the power, everything else but definately NOT the splashing. jil was like saying how powerful the splashes was. HAHA!

i'm feeling sea-sick now. probably cause we train in the open-sea.. geez
i hate to take naps i'll avoid them at all cost even if i'm freaking tired.
cause i'll get a headache and i'll feel so groggy..

oh, as i was walking home. the sun felt great!
mummy was surprised that i was home early for once.
anyway, wanted to go tanning at tp swimming complex, i was feeling excited just by the thought of it.
cause my limbs are so freaking dark, and my core is not.
BUT jerad couldnt find his swimming trunks. -_-
and hairy jer was.. let's put it short. lazy.
what wet blankets they are.
i ended up helping mummy clean the bird's nest!! haha..
it was fun at first.. and hour later, it felt deadening, then i kinda played around..
haha.

cant remember when was the last time we sat down together and have dinner.
but today felt so right and warmth.
i miss having dinner together, even though jerad irritates the hell out of me.
mummy's happy today. cause i did the dishes and i washed her sink.
but anyway she promised me a big bowl of birdie nest.. haha.

there's one rule when i'm using hairy jer's com.
that is to play whatever he wants to listen. which is TECHNO.
if not. no black music allowed.
listening to techno brings me back to secondary school days.
i still remember sher taught me how to dance to 'drvie me crazy' by espresso.
damm funny at first, but she moved so well. i was envious of her in so many ways.

funny how time past and how much i've changed.