Tuesday, April 26, 2005

went to the supermarket today!
i love it.. just me, music and the supermarket..
hahaha..

sigh. i think it's useless to appeal..
and seems like most didnt get what they chose but still pleased?
i wish i could feel the same. but i cannot help worrying..
maybe i could try asking them to put me in the paeds OT side..
rather than the women's.. there'll be more cases that i could learn from..

sigh.. and shld i tell him that i cannot make it?

i feel so annonyed with that girl..
jeez! my patience was about to blow just now..
she's so ill mannered, and such a liar...
but in other way, i feel sad for her too..
sigh..
and i pray for both mother and child to be strong..

sigh...

i miss him.
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it's been two days and i'm missin' you already
never really thought you could mean
so much in such a little time

think about the nights when i'm lyin' in your bed
with my chest resting your head
now that you're gone i'm here to stay

i think i'm fallin' down. down down down
with a bad case of love. love love love
i think i'm falling for you. you you you
i think, i'm falling in love

When you come back all I wanna do is hold you
Have a blast even though there's nothing to do
Hold you close and look you in the eyes

so just come back and i'll tell you how i feel
never knew how easy you could steal
my heart i miss you come home soon

i think, i'm fallin' in love
i think, i'm fallin' in love

----pug jelly-come home soon----

Monday, April 25, 2005

met kylie in the morning.. heh. punctuality was much better than the last time.
did the six rounds.. in bout 12 plus 13 plus? forgot to bring my watch again. -_-"
did some statics before we headed to the gym..
wasnt able to fool the cashier that we're 18 this time.. HA!

saw the singapore oylmpics body builder.. that uncle's so cute! haha..
i guess age is catching on him though.. he has boulders.
i felt so scared for him when he was doing squats.. afraid that his legs will give way..
so yeah, it was a silly thought.

met jo for breakie.. ok, i admit.. i wasnt small enough to squeeze through the chairs..
breakfast was lovely..
it's been a darn long time since i had one like that..

ah! that freaking nurse sucked..
and i've found out that i'm going to be deployed to the operation theatre of the women's tower..
which means, obstetric and gynaecology..
and they are not even any of my choice, when they said that we could choose!
sigh.. it was affecting me the whole day..
and i was trying hard, to be positive, to think of the bright side of being there..
still it was just too difficult to accept..
till i remember what ms lee said, you're still young, still 'spongy' so it's ok, just to learn more...
i just pray that i wouldnt be as cold as the instruments are in the theatre..

i need sleep.

Sunday, April 24, 2005

the truth always hurts..
but it was better this way then to be left hanging..
guess i thought wrong.. that i am doing ok.. but actually, i really sucked.
my eyes are experiencing the post-crying symptoms..
and i think i'm gonna have sore throat too..
it feels fucked up... really fucked up..
but now i know, we're family, and that they really care..
things will be better after attachments, when i've got more time..
to do what i'm supposed to...

sigh..
i'm missing him already...
his words of wisdom.. and the concern look in his eyes..

i've got to be strong once again.. on my own.