Saturday, April 23, 2005

i just realise how weak i am..
and that i've to be strong for others around me..

sigh.. too much has happened over the week.. too much to handle..
it's so scary how one can be..
i'm sorry, but i feel that you're all so self-fish......
how untrue all those talks were about.. and how despicable of you all to leave when we are at our most vulnerable state..
SHAME ON ALL OF YOU!
i feel more bad than ever.. to leave you all alone...
maybe it is a curse that we must break...

sigh..
this kind of feeling sucks.
been tearing too much over the week..
it's time to stop.

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angel, i hear you..
speak, i listen . . .
stay by my side, guide me...

it's always like that...
when i'm trying to blog.. i'll always get distracted, cause i'm like chatting and chatting..
hahaha

trg was really tough and draining today..
the new stoke was killing my arm...
i'm dead tired!
how sweet of za to tease me during trg. -_-
she smiled today, i'm happy about that, though it's for only a moment..
and as really a good one, bout why i like watching brazil play..
i'm so into BROWNIEs! as uncle jon said.. >_<

jerad is being a pain in the ass.. he keeps bugging me to DIG HIS EAR.
irritabant..

damm.. i'm hungry.

Friday, April 22, 2005

2 days of night shift..
and i barely had 8 hours of sleep in total...
i dislike her, she asks me to do her duty, when she's slacking around..
wtf.
the second night was better..
the staff kept offering us food, to keep us awake..
they're really nice people..

had agm yesterday.. i'm so happy for you girls.. i believe that both of you make a good balance, and will lead the team well...

i just feel so heartbroken for you..
i dont understand how you feel cause i've never ever been through what you had..
so maybe somethings i said wasnt appropriate..
it's not as simple as i thought it was might to be..
let go, forget and just move on..
but NO! it's more complex than ever..
i cannot promise that i'll always to there.. but like i said i'll try..
and when i dont know what to say to comfort you, i just hope that my presence will be enough to keep you warmth.. and make you feel safer.. at least, than being alone..




please forgive me, for i've sin...

Monday, April 18, 2005

ihst hsit si kgamin mi oncfsue... mi fleenig os dolve...
nad tuilgy....
grha...

exams results out at 3am..
shrugs..

i'm hungry, lazy and sleepy.

had a great weekend..
went to waterfront for movies by the bay, they were screening 'honey' and 'dirty dancing 2: havanas night'
it was lovely, just lying on mat, with hid and jo, enjoying the show under a blanket of stars....
left them, met candy and wendyat black...
haha.. crazy babes that i love hanging out with...

i'm so pissed sometimes..

mel's birthday chalet was fun, played majong, and dug some secrets out.. hahaha..
dennis was being really cuckoo that night, he was high on milk.

i wish there were bus services 24 hrs throughout, so that i could just take my time home, listening to music, or even reading.. plus, we'll save from cab fares...

jamming, wasnt all that good yday.. everyone's so... i dont know...
am loving the fourskin bag, thanks del.
your'e really sweet.


i'm sorry...