Saturday, March 05, 2005

i was telling hid yesterday how much i wanted to perform again.
ha.. well you have to sacrifice something for something else.

sometimes i wonder what is it that keeps me going for the band?
we talk so much but there's so little action to deal with the problems.
but honestly do we have that many problems?
we keep trying to perfect one song, and we keep trying different elements till we forget what isour goal..
geez.
it stinks sometimes, esp when everybody else wants to play their own thing.
and when the concentration period is up, they'll start to play it hmm.. unseriously?
i'm proud of my band, just that sometimes.. sigh..
i dont know.

hopefully the passion will be kept alive and strong.
till then.

thanks to jans, i caught a cold.
the weather was cold on thursday night, and she HAD TO SWITCH ON THE AIR-CONDITIONER.

finally started studying yesterday!
thanks hid for the company...
slacked at the stadium..
the cheerleaders are nice and friendly pple.
i'm amaze by the stunts they do..
they're so brave.

i felt sadness, confusion and anguish.
am i right?
i guess i cant read it anymore..

jealousy is natural?
but it's pretty ugly, it consumes you like a whole,
till you dont know what you've evolve into..

get someone soon, so i can ease my mind bout you..

thanks hid for the msgs and the dvd..
thanks jil and i'm sorry. cant stay over tonight..

oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARREN!

Thursday, March 03, 2005

i wonder WHO reads my entry..
that's the thing when you allow others to link you up.

anyway... last night was AWESOME! with candy and wendy..
met jae.. haha. he had specs on. nerdy.
i'm so hopeless when it comes to caucasians.
shitty.

so yeah, i was in a BAD MOOD today! at the very beginning of trg..
i'm so sorry mel..
was feeling so alone and argh, i dont know.
did weights with za..
after a while i was more light-hearted..
i'm so unpredictable sometimes it scares me...

oh before it's too late HAPPY BIRTHDAY THOMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

i lost my train of thoughts.....
lalala...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSEPHINE ANG JU YEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ah.. now i made her mad...
cause she hates it when i say that..
but it's ur birthday! it's the time to have fun!
you wouldnt mind would you?!
cause you love me so..
hahaha..
crappy...
i love you too..
and i'll always be here... >_<

Monday, February 28, 2005

jer is being mean...
he asked me to install the wireless card myself..
he forgot that i screwed it up that's why the hard disk was corrupted??
.........

my larynx is feeling sore..
thanks to a day of karaoke and a jamming session the next.
need more 'pi pa gao'..

pk-ed with hid just now.. YAY!! i conqured the playground railings!!
i mean, at least i can do a proper vault and gate vault..
my lazy is still weird. ha..

lalala.. oh ya!
i so wanna catch million dollar baby....

Sunday, February 27, 2005

firstly, before it's too late.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XIAO YUN!!
hmm.. but i doubt she knows about my blog anyway..

yesterday's sea trg.. hmm.. well it sure sucks to be left behind and not rowing..
really envied the juniors, za and hid. they got to row in the baby boat most of the time.
was paranoid bout him lending the cap.. hahaha..
and he looked so cute when he stood up to row!
*melts*
cuckoo headed jazz...

sorry hid and esther.. i realised i havent been walking to the stadium with you guys anymore...

it was great to be able to meet the 'brclips' again.. missed them a lot.
saw eddie the. haha. he looked exactly the same as he did in sec sch... should have gone over and say hi.. but oh wells...
ching yu sent me home.. how nice. haha.. he's certified a safe driver!!!
i could have killed desmond on the way home if i wasnt sitting in the front seat..
kay oon is still as crappy as ever..
i do hope khim will get over her...

oh yes, i saw him on friday.
i promised myself before that if i ever met him, i'll not acknowledge his presence..
but i just couldnt help it...
he wears braces now.. saw him again, outside, this time i did ignored.. and guess what, he turned away too..
it's better off this way, than to let history repeats itself.

wan came today!
he played the keys..
guess he was a little nervous.. advised him to remember the scores rather than looking at them all the time.. cause the scores are dead, it's how you bring them out to life..
sometimes i want to give up, cause i feel that i'm not good enough.
cause they're AWESOME.
sorry hid, really wanted to go pk with you and parkist.. just that it was raining and all and i was in jeans...

i just spent the last few hours watching mtv, a thai show and apprentience 2...
the bruises behind have subsided, but my back still hurts... geez...
need to drink more water......
one week break... for revision..
exams in 2 weeks time and i'm not in the mood!!!
i'm so gonna graduate soon.
fuck.
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i watched the walls around me crumble
but it's not like i wont build them up again
so here's your last chance for redemption
so take it while it lasts cause it will end
and my tears are turning into time
i've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

i can't live without you
can't breathe without you
i dream about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and i'm still living
it won't be right if were not in it together
tell me that it's over

i won't be the one to chase you
but at the same time your the heart that i call home
i'm always stuck with these emotions
and the more i try to feel the less i'm whole
my tears are turning into time
i've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

honestly tell me

don't tell me that it's over

----lindsay lohan-over----




i loved the mtv.