Saturday, December 18, 2004

forced myself to wake up this morning..
was meeting mel to run..
heh.. BUT she was late.. so i started first..
sorry mel.. anyway i was darn tired to run any faster.. haha..
then did pool rowing... gosh i think i need more practice..
cause i only did a few strokes and i feel tired...
argh!! miss sea-trg loads..
if only i have one star.. then can kayak or canoe.. HA!
but i'm a little afraid of being capsized..
i actually swam today.. heh.. but only did like erm.. 2 laps? i think..
but i swam like half a lap, rest, then continue again..
gosh.. i feel breathless after only half a lap??
as if i was having an asthma attack... scary.. wanted to tan.. but was lazy..
tried diving.. slap my tummy once.. *ouch!* it was really painful.. but fun still..
hai taught me how to dive.. i cannot make it still.. nose hurts everytime i try to go downwards....
yay! ate sting-ray and the sambal chicken from north canteen today... nice..
missed it.. got to eat them cause reubs lied that mac's was close.. well he cares for our health.. >_<

our first song is born today!! yay!! everything just flow out so nicely... haha.. i'm so proud of it!! i'm so proud of my band... and we turn ONE today!! hee..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRYO!!

Thursday, December 16, 2004

i'm happy today!!
yay! hehehe...
did circuits today.. 3 or 4? sit-ups and jack-knives.. they were killing?? esp the first set where we have to put our hands on our heads!! i love doing circuits.. cause i can sprint short distance better... and it's like super fun.. wani was fast! didnt wanted to let her go.. heh..
did weights.. yay! getting used to 7.5 kg i guess.. esp for upright shoulder raise! ha.. it was much better today.. and we did the new station ben asked us to.. what's that name again.. hmm.. anyway the guy's does seated row.. and we do 'that', ben said it's the same...
we thought we were done at eight.. but no! ha.. headed to the pool... and did rowing techniques.. was alittle pissed when i couldnt keep my fist infront of me... and yes jealous! when he went over to guide mel and jill.. and not me! super annonyed..
then he came over.. hahaha.. yesh.. so fun.. then when i got it.. he was like 'look at that!' *smiles* lalalalalalala... and not once.. but twice!! yay! okies.. my cheeks are aching.. HA!
lalalalalala... was happy over dinner too... yay! haha.. he noticed.. muahahaha..
am being cuckoo..
sweet dreams peeps!!!!!!! >_<

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

round2: i'm quite pissed that you didnt tell me what happened to you.. yes. cause we're close and how could you not tell me! we're suppose to cry together.. laugh together.. haha.. but still am annoyed.. it's just that you're feeling very down about it.. and i wasnt there to do anything.. it sucks you know.. i'll pray hard for you that they can slot it somewhere coming semester so you wouldnt need to pass out later... it's all been done.. work harder when school reopens ok?! meanwhile.. i'll be your joy and laughter.. heh.. >_<

(what i'm gonna write next is inspired by hid.)
sometimes i do stuff i dont mean to.. and i'm not aware that it actually affects the people around me..
sometimes i just do stuff with my heart, and not using my head.. and sometimes the other around..
so when the heart and the head doesnt communicate together.. what i do gets confused... i think..
i'm just so sorry to everyone, especially hid, hai, jo, es, sorry if i've ever hurt you in anyway by making you feel left out, making you pissed, making you sad.. making you wet..
diana, sher, iris, qing.. i'm so sorry too.. havent been spending time with you all..
esp diana.. everytime you msg me to ask me out and i always reply so late...
glenn.. sorry.. your present is still with me..
sorry mummy for hollering back at you the other day.. didnt mean it..
daddy.. you irritate me so much! but yes.. still i should learn to control my temper and not reply you with such a hasty tone.. sorry.. i love both of you so much.. just that i dont say it.. esp to you daddy.. mummy just get so eeeuuu about it..
i'm sorry to kryo! will spend more time to make songs!

guess if i learn to control my temper.. everything will be fine.. wouldnt it?
sigh...

was going through the chalet pics again and i saw duchess, ryan's husky...
she's so beautifull, with the double 'L'... her fur so soft and warm... her eyes.. they were sparkling..
always adore husky.. am obsessed with it.. wanted to get myself... but when i found out that he was using this electro thingy to suppress her behaviour.. i felt a sudden anguish rushing through me.. and i felt sad.. esp when mel wanted her to stand.. and ryan wanted her to sit.. and he pressed the button alot of time.. gosh!

yes.. the pics.. and there was one i caught 'you' looking at 'you'! ....... nothing to comment......... argh!! it's just driving me nuts..

i just realise that i lost my lovely clip... sigh.. anyway.. jamming this song at the moment.. and one that i wrote.. but it's not finished yet.. still finding inspirations to fill it up.. ha! cause that song just came out suddenly.. round2 was like playing the bass.. then shaih on the drums, slash was playing his own tune.. and suddenly i just sing with these words coming out.. am not going to preview them.. we'll wait till it's finished.. ;p meanwhile... i'm learning to sing this.. yeah.. and to sing it my own way..


i am not alone
i live with the memories regret is my home
this is my true freedom
express all the feelings of what i've become
i watch the rising sun
i hope i find some peace today

it seems i've gone away
it seems i've lost myself
it seems really lost my way
it seems i've lost myself
it seems i've
shed my skin

are you ready for me
or purge my love
are you ready for me
a bitter sinking feeling

awake to the fact there's no going back
to the world in which i was living
i'm searching for something but found less than nothing
i watch the rising sun
i hope i find some peace today

are you ready for me
or purge my love
are you ready for me
'cause i'm dying to feel
what i have lost
oh and what i was

all my life i've waited
endless days have taken
taken what made me free
years have gone i'm broken
left the past unspoken
those years
oh they haunt me still
----alter bridge - shed my skin ----



oh ya.. met up with shivy the other day.. she has changed so much.. not physically.. but mentally... yeah.. she has got this accent too.. ha.. felt so weird.. she's more open to stuff.. ha.. she's so lovin' melbourne... asked me to join her during the hols.. yeah i want to!! said i should do my degree in nursing there.. yes babe.. cause there aint any in sg!! haha... gave me this lovely huge red pencil-case.. suddenly i missed the green sugar candy i used to eat at her place during deepavali.. heh.. and yes muruku and pineapple tarts!!

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

do i even exist to you?
you're so cold towards me..
gosh..
i should stop it..
but it bothers me a whole lot!
and why is that so?
because i care for you or am i just plain silly?
it sucks.. it truly does...

Monday, December 13, 2004

the first day of chalet..

jo, hid, zhi and i met, to go over to ben's to bring some stuff over to the chalet... zhi was so cuckoo! she wasnt gonna stay over.. and she only came to help bring the stuff then go home... how silly can she get? ha... oh wells.. she was sweet.. heh..

anyway the chalet is super isolated from the city.. and the guys were late.. so we (hid, jo and i) went to the arcade area and played puzzle bubble and this other game where you have to find the differences between them.. mins later the guys came.. settled in.. then went to meet ben at white sands.. he was talking to reubs.. so didnt wanted to interupt.. after they finished.. i said 'hi' then ben was like 'wow.. you're so slow ah' gosh! he took me by surpirse!

anyway had dinner at the food court.. then ben recommended hid the 'tao hu goreng' he said it was damm good.. so we bought one of those and mee soto.. yums* but.. it was so spicy to me.. and yes.. i was perspiring non-stop.. hate that.. joined ben at the supermarket.. ha! was weird at first? cause jo, hid and i was like standing there.. and no one dared to talk to him.. so i was like need any help? then slowly.. he asked us to get some stuff for him.. i even asked him how to choose squids and fishes. ha.. and he taught me how..! heh..

we couldnt sleep so we decided to go to the playground!! heh.. played the swing.. it's really been a lOnGGggggggggggGGGGGGGggg time!! love the swing the most amongst others... then we tried the flying fox!! ha.. but the way we got on it was quite obsence.. ha! jo had to grip onto the rubber thing from the back? gosh.. haha.. then we climb rope structure thingy.. tired and we went off to bed...

2nd day.. yes.. ben knocked on our door so loudly, i felt as if it was gonna break and fall off... was kinda pissed actually.. oh wells.. went back to sleep till nine plus.. ha.. called reubs and he bought us nasi lemak.. so sweet.. managed to catch powerpuff girls.. heh.. and ate bout 4 kunings? cause no one likes to eat them? why?! they're great.. okies.. after eating and stuff.. went tanning with hid, and jane.. but the beach sucked.. there wasnt much shore to lay on, so we laid on the grass, which was a mistake cause there were loads of ants and hid's back got really red.. dipped into the sea for a while before we went to look for jo and hai, who were flying kites!! ha.. my first time? was fun.. hid and i was busy blowing bubbles too...

then we went off to play swing again! yay! then the guys came.. played catching in the mini maze they had.. was loads of fun! ha.. ben got caught twice.. but it was a tough one.. then jo rented bicycles and i learnt how to cycle!! yeah!!! three cheers for jazz!!! hip-hip-hooray!! hehehe.. but it was really difficult.. kept losing balance.. jo had a really tough time teaching me!! till she was tired, and she went up.. then uncle kang came.. and taught me the push method.. jun wen stayed with me till the end.. sweet...

the BBQ was nice.. there were loads of food.. so sweet of ben to remember bout me when the fish was ready.. but that GREEDY *E**I*came over and ate most of the meat.. argh.. but at least he did smth.. or else!..
played murderer last night.. it was hilarious!! gosh.. glenn was so funny.. and most of them didnt really know what winking is?!!? po chun and jason has got this look everytime they were the police.. it's damm funny.. hahah.. i cant really describe it.. oh wells... you'll have to play with them to know.. heh..

after diana and wani decided to go to bed, es, jo, dennis, glenn, andy and i went for a walk.. past ben's tent.. es was so tempted to crash his tent but ben sao was in there too.. so yes he got away.. suddenly, it began to pour.. and we took shelther at this hut thingy.. where they began to tell ghostly stuff... ah!! i hate it.. my eyes couldnt take it anymore.. slept at the stone benches.. they were so cold! my legs kept shivering.. finally, we went back to the chalet to sleep... and i couldnt sleep well.. 1st didnt had a blankie, 2nd it was too cold even tough we only switch on the fan.. ya..

think i wrote enough for today..
shall continue tmr... nitey...