Thursday, November 25, 2004

my very first patient died on me yesterday afternoon....

'ok, one collapse case and another RTA (road traffic accident) coming..'

then i headed to the resusitation room... there was a doctor and a nurse assigned to each case... they were busy preparing medications, equipments to receive the case..
all of us were in the room too.. in masked, gloves and gown.... then the RTA case came in... nurses franatically cutting the indian man's jeans and shirt... luckily it wasnt levis.. otherwise i think he'll curse and swear?

a minute later, the collapse auntie came in... she was brought in by the SCDF...
' patient collapse outside the polyclinic.. ...... ........ (couldnt recall what else was being said)'
while they were passing the report, the nurse had already pasted the 3 leads ecg, blood pressure cuff, one doctor intubating the patient and connecting the manual resusitator to aid her breathing, the other doctor was injecting adrenaline, atropine into her.. to make her heart beat again...
'someone cut off her bra...'
i went to cut it, and went back to my spot, to avoid obstructing the way...
they already commenced CPR, then sister asked me to continue...
so i did..
i was pretty nervous i must say... but i want to get her back... not wanting to let her go.. also hoping for a miracle...
she was already defibrillated in the ambulance.. and i wonder why they didnt do it in the resus. room...
she came in bout 1335, and was pronounce dead at 1440...
i was so sad... it's just so me... the staff nurse was busy taking the patient's valuables off, putting them in a bag, for her relatives to claim..
i frozed for a while i think... and there was too much comotion inside.. so i decided to leave the room.... and went to my assigned placement...
i was pretty much disturbed for a few hours.. eliel could sense it... i almost broke down...
anyway i was sending a patient into the consultation room, saw my lecturer told her bout it...
then she asked me whether i did 'last office' before... no i didnt.. send me to the resus. room again, saw suzannna and a staff nurse doing the procedure... 2nd death i've witnessed... and 2 in a day...
still we should respect their body no matter what....

and i guess when you're busy, it really puts your mind off stuff ......

i'm assigned to resus. room tmr... need to overcome this weakness of mine... it'll be a long hard day tmr...

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

hid: ha.. you just made me realise how much i miss tv!!! take your time to socialise... heh... you can do it! we didnt bond just in a day right?! heh... do take care of that right arm of ur's.. it's IMPORTANT!!

miss ya'll babes!!! cant wait to see you all at the chalet!! heh.. meanwhile, take care, have fun, rest well... and get treatment!! >_<

i need to get my com fixed!
shall ask bond jr. to come over as soon as i've cleared my room... ;p

well.. i'm proud to say that i didnt cry for the first time!!
i guess my mind was on the guy's race instead... i could feel that they were fighting hard.. cause they were slightly behind ntu... but i guess nus guys managed to caught up in the end.... i was screaming my voice off! and yeap... my vocals couldnt be heard on mon... they were only sounds? and i sounded horrid...
though we didnt managed to walk away with any medals, but we walked away, bonded, happy, and lovingly........
sorry babes i couldnt upload any pics cause of my com.. heh.. be patient yeah..
click here instead...
had dinner at sakura in tp, near my place! heh...
got za addicted to unagi... hahah.. it's ohyishi!!
took loads of pics... if my batt didnt died on me... would have taken MORE!!
heh... thanks daph ;p heh...

i took my time walking home i guess... had lots of stuff going through my head... and i realised that i'm beginning to miss him... and how scary it was that i wasnt able to see him as often as i used to....

ran yesterday with jer... he needs to lose 4 kg in 2 weeks?!?! how the hell can he do that!?
dont think he could even he went for liposuction... heh...
i guess i'll miss him too once he's in.... sigh...

working at the observation room yesterday was an eye opener... some nurses are just plain unfriendly.... and there were loads of trolley of patients... some waiting to be discharge... some waiting to be warded...
i chatted with this indian man, he's a musician... so i was like asking him, what happened to him... while he spoke this pungent smell of alcohol, flitered through my mask... goodness... alcohol abuse... it's ok to drink once in a while and not too much at that time... if u drink once in a while and get drunk everytime, you'll ruin your liver... cause they're overloaded with toxins before they can secrete them....
anyway he went fishing with his friend and they got a good harvest... so they decided to celebrate... and thus got drunk, unconsicious, gotten cuts and abrasion and a bump on his head... i wonder is it him, or just that i always make people cry? cause he did... i felt sad... but glad that i took off some stress from him.... did his elbow dressing which was coming off.. and he said it was a good one.. -smiles-
i wonder was that a sign you gave me...