Saturday, November 20, 2004

to you: i didnt know so much you were going through caused my com got screwed.. and u always managed to hide it well.. cause u're not showing it? i'm sorry that i wasnt there for you the whole time...

hmm.. was able to sleep well till 6 i think, then i began to project the image of the race site in my head... five hard, maintainence, then chargin... gosh... and i kept praying too... i think... guess i was sub-consicously asleep and awake... finally couldnt take it anymore.. woke up and catch 'ppg' heh... it's a relaxant... heh
well.. i thought that it was a good start for the girls and we are capable to do even better..we're just too impatience...
and yes, our timing is yet the best... oh wells... feeling a little sea-sick... and i'm thankful that the guys are given a second chance... tmr is then, or never... and us too... and ben is right... it's only the beginning...

okies.. back track a little to my attachment... there was this old lady we visited who has neuro-fibroids all over... and i was afraid.. cause i thought that it was infectious.. and i was so wrong.. we shouldnt judge anyone, by appearance.. i was just so wrong...

i didnt knew how to comfort you, or what to say jus now... i could only just glance at you... hoping that you didnt see... i guess sometimes by just touching means a lot... and that's the only way, i could convey comfort to you...

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

where i shall start???

sat:
trg was awesome that day... maybe cause we all miss ben, anyway fen invited me to city harvest church's fun-fair, which was near the indoor stadium... was fun... then it started to pour heavily!! yeap... so in the end i attended the service... it's amazing, to see 10,000 people?? coming together and worshipping what they believe in... it was truly, astonishing... and i was so hmm... touched? by the atmosphere.... they sang a lot of songs, in both english and mandrain... prefer the slow ones... the pastor that day, preached about 'our calling'.. like sometimes we feel as if someone is calling us, but there's just no one there... i was paying attention to what he preached, till the moment when he asked us to go closer to the stage if we wanted to accept christ.... the lady next to me asked me whether i felt anything... then suddenly, tears just kept pouring down... and i dont know why... and i did step foward..... holding onto fen's hands.. and this counsellor came and prayed for me.... and there's this song it kept playing in my head till now...
it goes something like:
i'm reaching for your heart
you hold my life in your hands
drawing me closer to you
i feel your power renew
no where compares to this place
when i can see you face to face
i worship you
in spirit and in truth............

sun:
i asked mummy about religion again... i just cant keep what happened the previous night out of my head... i need to seek answers to my questions... mummy was a bit irritated at first... then after a while, she spoke nicely... and asked me to asked daddy more about it.....
oh wells... let's not go into details.....

mon:
woke up at 8am, forced mummy to go running.. she wants to lose weight very badly... and she needs the support... so there i was..... heh... it was so damm tiring to run, immediately when u just woke up.... i felt tired the whole day! hah.. but still went to my china classmates' place for dumpling feast....... it was GREAT!!!!! i learnt how to make dumplings!!!

tue:
today.... hmm... went around with the staff nurse today, for elderly services... covered a lot of places in toa payoh today... the travelling part was tiring.... but was interesting too.... ate at ttsh, and when i was about to go back to the head quarters, i saw this lady who was so familiar... then i realise she was my ex-patient's daughter...then when i turn around, my patient was there!! she had fully recovered from the other time... thank god... she looked so healthy, and radiant... and she held my hands tight... and wouldnt let go, and even asked me to 'jalan jalan' with her... but i couldnt, so she said to kiss her on the cheek... and i did... ha... i felt so happy! and apprecitated... *smiles* it gives me the warm fuzzy feeling.......
if i'm not wrong, today is the third time i met him on the way to trg? the very first was my 1st regatta race... ha! we took the same train but only met on the way up... today the same thing again.... ;p anyway trg just now was great! to me... still can improve on my running... daph is such a lovely person... she makes me smile.. she's just so positive and vibrant.... heh...