Friday, October 15, 2004

com is screwed again.. pouts*
am at elab now, with feng, helping her with her nutrition presentation later.
that silly girl accidentally deleted her file..

yeah.. bout weds, went for my very first physio session.
my therapist is bj, she's so nice!
always smiling.. like me? cause when we smile, our eyes can hardly be seen.. anyway this other guy mk was observing. he is so irritating!!! cant stand him. he reminds me of eliel...
so yeah, my diagnosis is 'patealla femoral pain syndrome'.., my left patella has more mobility than my right... and she said there might be some degeneration going on already? cause it hurts when she palpated and push my patella to the left side.. she taught me a range of exercise i'm suppose to do, to strengthen the muslces and 'pull' my patealla back into place...
my calves and hamstings are tight? need to do more stretching too...
almost cried when i saw hid.. sigh*
i will make it through! just follow instructions, take more milk and glucosamine..
hopefully...

anyway had been mugging the computer for my 1500 word essay.. ha.. finally finished it yesterday... exams coming soon! damm.. gotta start studying.. i've kinda forgotten bout the earlier modules? diaoz*

to hai: hi babe!! hang in there ok? sorry for not being there when u needed me... sigh.. take care aight? and come to me if you need a hug, or someone to punch.. i can take it.. take care aight!! miss ya! muacks*
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go on, make me feel it's useless
when in fact it's you that need to have me near
so now, keep me at safe distance
and with a little persistence i'll make it crystal clear
i'll be around
only if you want me to
be there by your side
i'm ready for you
----hoobastank-ready for you----

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

i've fallen in love with air max brilliance hee.. just what i need?
heh.. will have to wait for 25th oct though..

i'm done with a few other parts of the essay..
i felt that i wasnt productive over the past few hours..
damm!!
shall continue and hope to complete tmr.. i dont feel tired yet.. but yeah need the sleep... going for my first physio session tmr.. am a little worried bout the outcome.. silly girl.. everything will be fine!
zal is such a funny guy.. ha.. crappy' he always brighten my mood.. even though i'm always so energetic and happy.. as he said it.. heh.. he jams too! ha..

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

hid!!! please be reading this now if u're still at ur elab..
cause i'm in school already!! please call or msg when u see this!

whahaha.. did gym with jo and hid.. heh.. had lotsa fun.. hid and i ran 1.6 km in 9 mins?
was super fast.. hid was really pacing me. but it was a good run! heh..
we only did one station today?..
today's trg focus mostly on biceps, biceps and more biceps!
shoulders and back too..
did the rowing machine.. it's spoilt.. still it saddens me..
anyway tired bench press.. no boobies? heck it..
since engorgment will take place when you breast feed your babies.. heh..
crappin'..
whaha....
and yes, i smiled more to him today.. ha..
am happy today.. smiles*

Monday, October 11, 2004

felt peace when i was listening to his songs while walking to school..
though the surroundings was alive...
i only felt the wind, me and his song..
am more cheered up after that..
even though i was listening to a sad piece..
maybe cause i've found peace?
ha..
doing essay now, with hid beside me..
both of us gonna freeze to death.. ha..
i just grined at her and she showed me the 'what?' face..
so funny.. entertaining myself..
ok managed to cover 4 parts out of 14 parts of the essay..
kept asking hid to check my grammer and stuff.. ha
cause her command on english is better than mine.. ha..

trg later.. jo's coming.. we'll be running for 30 mins. heh..
shall try to hit 12-15 rounds? if we're not lazed that is and my knee that's not act up.

Sunday, October 10, 2004

jazz!!!!!! stop being so negative about everything!
try to look on the brighter side of life!!!
okies... shall try.. not to post anything emo, and negative..
it's gettin' on someone's nerves?
yeah. on mine.

i'm just so sad now..
just too much on my mind..
and you're in it too..

i dont feel anything from you?
it's just so tormenting..
and maybe it's really petty of me to get jealous over minor stuff..
but it's just the way it goes?
many a times i tried to ignore you..
try to put up a strong front, try to act as if i dont care..
but in the end, i still do...
was wondering are you recovering? or is it worsening...
and i'll try to steal glances of you...
hoping that i wouldnt get caught..
to be make it less obvious?
i just feel so silly and weak at times..
and i said i wanted nothing more, nothing less than a friend...
it's not you it's me..
so dont feel bad or watever..
sigh*
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cannot touch, cannot hold
cannot be together cannot love,
cannot kiss, cannot have each other
must be strong, and we must let go
cannot say what our hearts must know
how can i not love you?
what do i tell my heart?