Friday, October 01, 2004

i didnt managed to sleep last night..
was constantly reciting to myself bout the procedures which were gonna be tested.
gosh* i was subconsiously awake all the time.. kept waking up every other 30 mins.
i passed! yeah! wasnt soo bad afterall cause my lect. was good.. shall not name her though to get her out of trouble. she's so nice.
hee.

now i'm feelin weak.. it's that time of the month again!
and i wasnt prepared for it!
damm..
am feeling the cramps now. shit.
i just wanna get through today quickly!!!

Thursday, September 30, 2004

stupid internet connection is screwed up again..
am at the com lab..

yesterday...
was trying to study for my theory test.. but there's a lil' part of me, that kept worrying bout friday's presentation.. in the end.. couldnt really get the info into my head..
didnt think i did well for the test.. pract. test is on friday. i can do it.. i know i can. sigh* i need some tlc.
went to see hid did some parkour b4 we changed.
showed her my bruise. it was still turqoise in colour?
asked her to rub it for me.. and she really RUBBED. ouch* but it's better now..
hee.. thanks babe..
was pretty upset yesterday? seems like i've lost my touch on running.. am always lagging behind now? she's so fast.. she takes such small and quick steps. i need more self-trg. was having probs during pool-rowing too.. i was distracted, thought bout friday again? lucky viv reminded me to reach down further? gosh. what's wrong with me.
didnt realise that he was watching us row. smiles* told hid. hee.. but when we went to drink for our 2 min break, he left.. seldom see him in sch, except trg days..
we didnt went for dinner yesterday. had miscommunication? ha.
in the end, hid, jo and i took cab and head home.
bathed. ate ramen. yums* watched a lil' tv before i start to do my project again.
then realise the internet connection was screwed..
tried to fix it myself.. it got worst.
damm. bro would be so pissed if he found out that he gotta fix it for me again.
he has no patience? ha.

i'm feeling that kinda feeling again. and it stinks.
argh! my eyes are watery again..

wanted to donate blood just now. mummy didnt allow.
and i wonder is it because she has lack of knowledge about it or what.
is she afraid that i wouldn't be able to replace my blood lost?
need to educate her more.

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

shall update now, will be busy studying later..

woke up pretty early but was late for lessons.. wth. and i mean late..
supposedly late-comers were all early today.. ha.
was having mood-swing in the morning.. feeling stressed, agitated, was annoyed at almost everyone today.. except feng, ifah, yati and zuuz.. haha.. they're my babes.
was at e-lab from 11- 3pm? almost frozed to death.. i could hardly write..
and i kept listening to chinese songs today! ha.. it's been a long time..
after that went to eat happy food.. tuna sandwhich. feng was complaining that i always eat that.. i'm a 'fishy' person.. what to do? haha
wanted to nap when i reached home..
but was too engross with the com..
so yeah..
missed my chance..
am feeling sleepy now? damm
besides i cant concentrate!!
they're having mooncake celebrations at the void deck..
and guess what.. they're singing karaoke... dreads*
i closed my windows already.. and i can hear them still..
that's the disadvantage of staying at ground level...
gosh.. now they're singing those 'tok tok chiang' songs....
faints*

let the angels take you on your flight of a thousand journeys,
in your unique world of peace...
wonderful nights of calm strike with swift surreal splendor...
may your sweetest dreams devour you in emotions running a plenty...
slumber gentle as a new born baby...
picture of it all,
thoughts tranquility...

-****-

went to ben's place yesterday for a bbq-cum-mooncake-festival-celebration.. was fun.. but i guess most of us were pretty tired from trg already.. ha

damm.. i'm suppose to do my work! but i cant seem to concentrate.. and now.. i feel like sleeping instead.. damm.. tmr i'm going to stay n school and 'lock' myself at com lab to finish them!! there's 2 test on weds? my theory test and ben's quiz.. am stressed about it..
then on friday there's 2 presentation which i've yet to finish? and my practical test is also on friday!!!.....

met hid today and we did parkour at the sports hall area.. her fren, weiliang was there.. lucky he was there.. otherwise i'll probably not be here.. it wasnt as easy as it seemed.. it was a challenge to over our fear and how creative you are to overcome ur obstacles...
sigh*.. got a nasty bruise.. it'll turn purple tmr!!
i'm so pissed with myself everytime i'm thirsty.. cause it'll remind me that i lost my water-bottle again.. first was the white one, now's the black one.. jo said that i've got no fate with them... damm!!

groupies! as usual ben didnt really smile?
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Sunday, September 26, 2004

well hid.. in relation to what u've posted..
the first few sea trainings.. ben noticed me.. but called out to me as 3rd left rower, twist more..
and he always corrected me only.. so that that point of time.. i was utterly demoralised.. next few trgs, he asked for my name.. heh.
then asked me to row with the seniors in the baby boat... was really honoured and excited..
now.. heh.. am really thankful that he corrected me and taught me how to excercute the stroke well..

knee wasnt looking good yesterday..
okies if i pass by any pharmacy shop tmr.. shall get the glucosamine pills..
didnt see him online for 2 days already!!
but managed to say hi to him last nite.. thanks to jo.. thanks babe!
he sounded so nice...... with that raspy voice..
ha.. i'm evil.. while his sick and stuff..... i'm talking bout how nice his voice sounds?
silly jazz..

met her today.. was really happy to see her again.. but i almost cried when i saw her.. cause i felt i wasnt there when she needed us the most.. her baby is so cute!! ha.. and he likes me.. heh.. they always say i've got the 'home-look'.. she even joked about hiring me to be her nanny? ha.. ok i've got the hom-look because during sec sch days i'm the one who needs to go home early.. she still so herself!! and i understood her situation better, when we talked on the way back to jack's place to get her wallet.. haha.. yeap.. she always lose her stuff.. like someone i know? haha.. and she's so calm and cool about it.. when diana was panic for her? ha.. shall meet up with her again.. and play with marshmallow.. ;)