Saturday, September 18, 2004

dragged myself to sch today for the swimming ivp today..
it was hot, hot, HOT today..
haha...
hot as in the weather and hot as in more hot bods today.. the girls and the guys.. ha..
everything was going smoothly till the last event..
throughout the whole day the thing i fear most was: forgeting to take the timing or forget to stop the timing..
and at the last event.. it happened..
i was holding the stop-watch with my thumb at the start button.. then the air-horn went off.. i was still staring blankly into thin air.. then when my soul returned.. i realise it was too late.. i forgot to start the stop-watch.. my heart was pounding with fear.. but i need to be brave enough to face it.. went over to aunt jessie.. she was like 'aiyo, darling.. nvm take the average of the 2..' i felt so guilty. even after the event.. the shock didnt go away.. i'm so so sorry... pris, luwena.. thanks for comforting me! u're both so sweet..

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today i saw the ugly side of some.. and it's really scary. i wonder if others thought of me that way before too.. i never expected them to react this way.. and i guess what jo said was right.. we got to stop this.. and i'm trying too.. not to be a hypocrite.. not to be a back stabber.. and not to be someone blind just following and not using my brain and my heart to feel what is right and what is truly wrong.. and i feel that i'm drifting away from you.. i dont know why.. and it seems like we dont have much to talk about anymore.. sigh.. i dont know

jazz n pris..
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gals after the swim meet '04
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i'm suppose to asleep now.. hahaha
running nose acted the whole day till trg started.. thank god..
my right 2nd toe hurts.. think the nail is gonna come out..
damm..

Friday, September 17, 2004

i just want to play...
nothing more, nothing less...
it's that so hard to ask for?

Thursday, September 16, 2004

four 'Js': jer, jer, jas, jan
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am so blessed to have u as one of my babes..
thanks for listening, crapping, bitching with me..
and of course laugh at my 'lame' jokes..
we'll motivate each other towards our goal from monday onwards..
=)
............... loves

i'm just being the emotional me again..
have been tearing and i dont know why...
so sickening.. stupid tear ducts..
they cant seem to stop..

i just feel more terrible inside..

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

damm... why do i kept mentioning abt him nowdays?!?!

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

i'm freezing!!
damm com labs are always so darn cold.. but it's ok.. hee..
i can therefore indulge in the warmth my sweater brings.. ;p
having lessons in bout 10 mins... ha.. and i'm still here...
crappin'
diaoz* -_-"
haha... ifah is crazed.. she's pacing up and down.. like a mad woman.. hahaha
i giggled at her.. and she threatens to kick my butt.. haha
okies gtg.. she's crazing at me.. haha she wants to pull the wires??

lagging lagging!!!
i'm so silly, i thought we had an e-lecture abt heart related emergencies... it turns out to be heat related emergencies. silly me..

am tired.. going off to bed as soon i finish this..
swimming ivp was today.. changed lab sessions and joined zaman's class.. he's worst than he used to be.. sigh* peeps do change.. and it's pretty shocking how one can change so drastically over a short period of time.. anyway pris, cat and i were the time-keepers for lane 1. and pris came to a conclusion that we cursed lane 1, cause every participants who took lane 1 came last.. but i guess it's the hmm increased in resistance by the ripples cause by the centre lanes? sat is the big day for them.. hope the peeps from our sch will do well..
all the best and db girls ROX! ;) am pretty proud when the chief time-keeper said that he's impress with us... that we only sit down when the race finishes.. and the girls have more discipline than the guys.. hee.. except the 3 girls in-charge of lane 4.. and hee.. pris, she's as close as one of us!!
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since you've gone i've been lost without a trace
i dream at night, i can only see your face
i look around, but it's you i can't replace
i feel so cold, and i long for your embrace
i keep crying baby, baby please

Monday, September 13, 2004

i'm so silly.. i thought there's e-lecture on heart related emergencies.. to my surprise it was heat related emergencies.. not heart. silly me..

am pretty tired.. today was the first day of swimming ivp.. even though there's only 3 events.. i'm so tired.. cause today's events are all long distance races.. pris, cat and i were in-charge of lane 1... and pris thinks that we jinx-ed that lane cause every participant in that lane comes last... but if i'm not wrong... i believe it's the ripples coming from the centre lanes that increases the resistance of the side lanes? ha.. i dont know how to explain.. but it was fun.. standing there, watching the swimmers and commenting them.. haha.. as if we're the experts.. but i was pretty worried bout this guy in lane 2, he flipped too near the wall and everytime he filps, i'm afraid that he'll hit either his head, or bum.. hee..
sat is the big day for them.. and hope they'll do well esp peeps from school.. all the best!! and db girls ROX! >_<

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since you've gone i've been lost without a trace
i dream at night, i can only see your face
i look around, but it's you i can't replace
i feel so cold, and i long for your embrace
i keep crying baby, baby please

Sunday, September 12, 2004

too many peeps are using blogger!!!!!!!

found twinkle's (my hamster) body yesterday morning.. it was floating at the washing machine area.. *sobs*
now darth varder is the onyl one left.. not going to get anymore.. it's just too much to handle..

rowing was tiring today.. ben brought the tyre down.. dreads to see that.. luckily he didnt drop it down.. otherwise the boat wouldnt move at all!! and i'll probably feel very agonize by that fact..
but anyways was really glad that we almost fill the whole boat!! and all of us were wearing red.. hee.. esther came over.. gave her my 'gu naiang' clothes.. ha.

mummy's only coming back on sat.. she went to china again.. sigh. daddy would be bugging me this whole week asking me to return home early..