Saturday, July 17, 2004

i'm selfish cause i dont wanna get to know him better.. i'm afraid of knowing too much.. and it will confuse me even more..
 
i'm such a hypocrite cause i have thoughts bout u, u're so irritating at times.. and i hate the way u act.. argh! u just get on my nerves sometimes.. but i couldnt show it.. it wouldnt be right. cause u're so close yet so far from me..
 
i'm crappin? or am i telling the truth..
mummy just came beside me.. and yakked. well, i guess i'm in a rebellious stage.
love it. but feeling so guilty bout it.
 
........ i guess i'm broken when i'm lonesome.......
 
 
 
 

Thursday, July 15, 2004

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
hey reubs..

Reu says:
sup

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
just wanna ask u wat's that guy's name again?

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
haha

Reu says:
who?

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
short term memory bad..

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
i only ask u one guy just now..

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
the one with the addias bag

Reu says:
kheng yao

Reu says:
WHY????????????????

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
nothing.. cause i always see him but i cant seem to remember his name..

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
hah

Reu says:
oicc...............

Reu says:
bwahahahaha

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
yes yes.. bad memory..

Reu says:
eat more fish

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
i love fish!!

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
actually i eat them all the time?

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
ha

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
seems like they're not working on me..

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
anyway wat time u start work tmr?

Reu says:
all the time? haha

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
ok most of the time

Reu says:
I need to sleep soon, need to wake up at 6am to go kallang and row

Reu says:
then be in work at 930

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
okay.. u're routine is like that everyday?

Reu says:
erm.... every tues and thurs

Reu says:
well, sometimes more haha

Reu says:
ok off to bed for me

Reu says:
nites

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
nite

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
see ya on fri

Reu says:
cya

hee.. i was kinda happy when reubs asked why.. haha..

anyway today's turn out was AWESOME!!
the newbies are all so fun-loving! hee.. esp jane! she left a deep impression on me.. others too like the funky hid, aisyah, pris, ni ni, clara, fish.. and more.. and there's this one. --e---e shall not name her.. cant stand her!
ben lead the pack today.. we played a game for starts, we had to stand in a group of 10 close together and well, join hands.. in a way to get out of the tangles and stuff.. and my group was the first girl group who made it!! yeah! then did some running, sit-ups, push ups and chin ups..
next is our nightmare.. pool rowing.. it wasn't that bad.. but i feel weird teaching others.. just not used to it..
then after we bathe and stuff, had dinner together at the nearby 'resturant'.. where we played the 'party game' haida taught us.. haha.. and 'black magic' too.. fooled lotsa pple.. and got lots of them paranoid too.. esp jon. haha.
then went home.. really tired.. and well 2 of the new guys actually stay near my area.. so no more lonely train and bus rides home!! ha..
tmr there's like only 2 lessons and a 5 hour break in between?
geez.

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
hey jazz..

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
i dont know

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
but

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
i juz feel like i gotta say this...

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
yeap

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
im sorry

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
for anythin' and everythin' dat i've done to u

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
dat u dont like, dat u hate..dat ur annoyed at...da ur irritated

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
eh.. relax...

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
i'm cool..

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
feel like i've did alot of sins towards u

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
i seriously felt like emo-ing just now..

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
ha

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
no no..

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
it's not bout juz now

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
no u did a lot to a lot of pple

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
..

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
i juz haf a gut feelin' to say this

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
yea

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
i know

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
i do it to everyone

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
even to da yuhan

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
eh

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
i am sarcastic

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
serious?!

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
i know

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
diaoz..

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
ya

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
u really did it to him

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
u arse

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
..

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
yea...i am an ass

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
juz gotta say it b4 it's too late

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
sorry yea

- j a z z - | mexicano | says:
i shall save it somewhere so i can always refer to it when i feel pissed with u

m.R Ray | risin' rockstar | says:
haha..yea u better

so i did.. i saved it here.. so whenever i get pissed with round 2, i know where to find his answer..
oh well.. jammed just now.. it was awesome! farid is getting better and better after each session.. well the peeps at alveron gave us to on to how to sound better.. by tuning the guitars half step down. yuhan said that i was good. was embarass, cause seriously i cant play a full song. so i'll take that comment but not let it grow big on me..

darryl sent me more mexicano songs? but i still prefer the one hid sent me, dashboard confessional - vindicated. i heard it over the radio before.. just didn't really notice it..
oh well the gig is confirmed on 7th August @ NUS but it's a fund rising thingy so peeps if u wanna see my band - KRYOGENIX bring the house down.. u gotta pay 7 bucks.. it's cool yeah.. to see us perform.. hahah.. tired.. so many projects to discuss on tmr..

the newbies are coming tmr.. please let everything turn out great!
nitez world..

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

am in school now.. waiting for the 12 noon lesson to start.. here i am sitting in front of the com, listening to the perfect 10.. heavenly.. ha..
am super tired.. i slept at 1.30 yesterday? though i logged off early..
printed 'going under' scores so that i'll be able to play them later..
i wonder if i could manged my time properly.. there's so much to be committed for..

1. dragon boat
2. studies
3. jamming sessions

guess i'll priortise this 3 factors more than anything else first.. unless emergency stuff..
anyway was obsessed with my new phone yesterday.. yes i changed it again..
but i guess this is gonna be ard for a long time.. it's a good investment i must say.

did self trg with the team yesterday. loved it.. though we're small in numbers we're really strong in bonding and well having fun! jo almost fulfill her wish of running her rounds, but a stupid cramp trash all that.. cause ben forgot to hang back the weight thingy and jo tried to hang it back.. and she accidentally pulled her calf muscle.. *diaoz. i do wish everything will do fine for her.. it saddens me in a way and also pissed me off in a way, when she keep saying if it doesnt work out she'll step down..

meet za in the morning.. she totally brighten my day.. ha.. we were so cuckoo just now.. ha. am happy.. the newbies will be joining us tmr.. hopefully there aren't too much bitchy ones and those like my ex-senior.. cant stand people of her kind.. and yeap.. hopefully there's cute guys too..!! ha! anyway saw my cute kayak guy today.. hee. the one who came over and offered help to jo when she was in pain.. i'm evil. when she's in pain, i'm checking out guys? but hey.. i was lookin' after her, it's just that i cant touch her cause she was in too much pain..
*grinz

Sunday, July 11, 2004

we made it!!! yeah!
but actually yesterday i almost cried during the first half of our jamming session.. was feeling really stressed and i felt so useless at that point of time. cause i felt that i couldn't contribute to the band.. then when the auditors came. i felt better.. cause fatin was like talking to me.. and we kinda excited each other..
farid and fatin were amazing.. i'm so proud of them.. haha. and us too.. round hit his drums as if never before... shake like usual was great with the bass.. as for 'slash' and 'mr malmsteen' ha.. i dunno how to comment on guitars.. but they were awesome.

then had dinner with the team at newton again.. hee.. love that place.. think we're gonna eat there more often now..

reubs amaze me with wat he has in store for the team.. i guess he always had the ideas in mind.. just that the fact he wasn't captain.. he couldn't excecute them.. ha.. jo too.. i guess she's stress in a way cause now she's captain.. and she wants the best for the team.. so well.. i guess i should do my part too now that i'm publicity head.. ha.. wanna revamp the notice board.. need lots of pics!! love them. a picture speaks a thousand words? smth like that..

my emotions was kinda messed up the psat few days.. round feels that i've been quite disturbed.. but well.. a lot of stuff had happened.. that's why.. i need time to regulate them.. i'll be fine in a couple of days.. hopefully..