Saturday, June 19, 2004

How to make a jasmine

Ingredients: 3 parts pride 5 parts humour 5 parts instinct

Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of lovability

hahaha... got it from reu's bloggie.. now i'm wondering whether i'm invading privacy?

i'm finally free from attachment!!! but anyway.. was difficult to sleep last night... but i think tonight i can do it... super tired
i'm feeling a little seasick now from the race... starting when we reached there... i was feeling a little tired already... fuck... i hate to think that it was because of me that we girls didnt do as well... fuck it.. it's over... but i really do enjoyed the mixed set though we didnt make it to the top 3... it was like one of our bloody good ones... still the seniors do expect more... so i cant really comment much as i'm still new as this... tmr is the day for us cause it's the inter-varsity and polytechnic finals... i really wan something from this... even if i dont i wont let the rest have a easy time ahead of us... we'll give it our all!! the girls finals is the final event for us... so yeah all out!! no more holding back...

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

2 more days!! and i'll be free from this misery... great!
longing to end the attachment more than anything.... then i can spend more time on other stuff like practising and sleeping... couldn't wait for 22nd June too?!? linkin park is coming!! so longing for that day to come...

i'm upset now... so i shall try a therapy thingy missyhid taught me... list the things that i love and like...

i love the way my hair falls in place after i washed them... i love mummy's soup... i love the fact that my sister is sleeping with me... (and yes i mean sleeping only) i like hugs from my girl frens though i don't get them often... i like holding hands... esp with my girl frens and mummy... i love to shop with hid and esther... i love meeting up with diana, sher and iris... i love my hugo women fragrance... i love the way ivan smell... i love jamming with my band... i love taking pictures and being taken i love my dragon boat team... (though we're a little messed up) i like apple juice with aloe vera... i love my handphone... i love my com.. i love the joss stone cd i got... in fact i love all the cds i've got... i love to feel loved... i love sweating after a run or gym... i love getting enough sleep... i love my nike and converse sneakers... i love my super low waist jeans... i love the puma pants... i love my gio shirts... i love earrings... i adore black eyeliner... and my mango-peach lippy balm... ... ...

talked to round2 on the phone bout 2 nights back? which was a monday? talked bout the band and stuff... how he's gonna be more upfront to us...
then suddenly i asked him...

me: have i changed much since year 1?
him: yeah... a lot..
me: both, good and bad?
him: yeah
me: ok.. so wat was the bad?
him: u shld know yourself better..

after much persuation..

me: the fact that i go clubbing often?
him: to me that's bad ah... i dont know to u..
me: that i dont eat sometimes?
him: that's bad but not that.. you know it... think really hard..
me: i dont know... tell me!

then i hit my head against the bed side... i was like rubbing it to ease the pain...
then suddenly i said..

me: i'm more hypocritical now..
him: yes! that's right...

for a moment i was speechless... i was embarassed of myself and my behaviour... then i hanged the phone.. i did some recollection and realise that it's kinda true... i've been making comments bout her, her and him... and i know that i should change this kinda attitude... it's hard but i'll try... or maybe it'll be less hypocritcal of me if i keep my comments to myself... or i'll just tell it straight to the person...

thoughts are running through my head...
it's hard for them to get out of me...
i've tried forgetting but it failed..
so i'll try screaming and let it fade away...

Sunday, June 13, 2004

super super tired... but had fun today!! went out with hid and esther cause i couldn't stand another min staying at home with my mummy... dont know why but nowadays my temper is getting bad... anyway we went to queensway and shopped!!! we bought earrings!! hee... then later went ikea... his and i were like lying on the bed, slacking on the sofa, chatting... so fun!! shld do it more often... then later we bought candles that were PINK! haha.... oh met eva.. when we were taking pictures... was nice to see her again... dammit it's 2247 now.. better get off to bed otherwise i wont be able to get up tmr...