Saturday, May 29, 2004

this will be a short and quick one... cause i'm gonna call round²

went out with hid, hai and al today... had lotsa fun.. didn't know it'll be fun to go out with a guy? hmmz... nope a trans... haha.. neyways did lots of shopping... ya... gonna be broke soon? need to collect my debts soon...
saw wei xiong today on my way home?... at first this guy walked past.. then i was like hey this guy is quite cool... then he walked infront of us... and he kept lookin at us... i was like ok... keep cool... heck care... then suddenly he was like 'hey, are u jazz?' i was like 'yeah'... then i looked at him... i was like 'wei xiong!!' ha... surprisingly he said hi? cause i never ever really talked to him before... so weird... i guess people do change...
went to vist aunty alice today? she was like 'oh my god... you're so skinny now..' i do know that i've lost some weight but not to that extent... i guess only those who haven't seen you in a while would notice...
sort of missed him today... but since he's avoiding... i guess it's no point going on calling and stuff... it will make me look like a despo?... sigh i will be strong!! yes...
and finally got my results thanks to hai... cause she gave me another webby... it's ok... at least i've got an A and only 1 D...
tired... haven't been sleeping well? had training yesterday and came home late as i went to grab a bite with jo.... then when i called round² talked till 1am? bout ivan and all... woke up at 0550 hrs... so bloody sleepy....

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

the thoughts in my head are confusing me...
i feel as if you are using me...
tormenting me everyday..
in every different way...
i dont know how to put it to you...
cause i know it'll be no use...
for in the end i'll be weakened...
everytime i meet you during weekend...
i'm so vunerable...
and i hate it...
i want to be strong...
but i cant fight it...
i cant fight the feeling when i'm with you...
i hate you...

Monday, May 24, 2004

was feeling okay...
now that i'm alone.. i always let my thoughts wonder... and i'm feeling kinda down now...
down because i miss him and i cant get him again...
down because there's a misunderstanding btn my gfs???
down because i'm such a bitch sometimes...
pissed because the 'a' drive fucked up again...

think i need some sleep to clear my thoughts... have serious prob with my eye baggies...