Wednesday, April 28, 2004

it's cold and wet outside...
and i've been thinking about you..
i guess you're out in the field now..
i wonder how you've been today..
for me... it's bad...
haven't been able to concentrate...
miss you loads...

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

i miss you so much

jammed oh sat... was fun!! then went to meet ivan... hee... met his close friends... jo and xiang yu.. played pool... had lotsa fun!! haha... they're kinda rowdy but they're not afraid of what others might think of them... then chilled outside mac's... just sitting beside him, i felt so loved... in the end decided to go to his place to watch bad boys 2.. at the same time mac's was playing the wonders - that thing you do... then it came to the part..'... just can't take it anymore.... ah...' then all of us screamed and ran off... and thus my chain broke!! sad.. but it was fun being naughty again... so went to his house... was kinda afraid cos both his parents are home... and oh... his cat is beautiful.... it's name is tiger... it looks like one too... so just said hi to his parents and went to his room... it's neat... he has stuff i wonder how he got them... then... laid next to him on the bed... sweet... hee... though i couldn't really watch the tv.. it was really nice laying beside him... smelling him... holding his hands... hugging him... feeling his hands stoking against mine... and once in a while he'll turn towards me and kiss me... hee... really nice...
bad boys 2 was really funny... and it's kinda awkward watching it with 3 other guys... hahah.. anyway as we all know all good things must come to an end... and yes i had to leave... it was getting late... so he sent me down... and we waited for a cabby... while waiting, i hugged him a lot... cause i know that this week i won't be really seeing him!!! then we sang the blink 182 song.. i miss you... sigh... miss him loads....... and couldn't really contact him now as his hi-card ran low... *sobs*

then i was being a little paranoid on sunday... ok very paranoid on sunday when i didn't hear from him once... cause he kinda promised to called... and i so wanted to meet him? cause it's the last day i can see him till next sat... and i guess he didn't want to distract me... exams on friday? though it's only 2 papers... but this time these 2 papers seem kinda hard... cause i can't seem to concentrate!!!

just wish that he's doing fine and stuff in camp... miss him a lot!!... but i need to study otherwise i've got to retake my papers which sucks even more... dreads..

hid showed me this webby... it's really sad... http://www.happyfacehome.com/mtv/kiss.htm

Sunday, April 25, 2004

sorry hiddy... hee... was busy due to the attachment... so didn't had the time to update... shall start now...
LOTS of stuff happened to me... anyway went chinablack last sat... cause it was chelsea's friend birthday... then we queued in the bloody line for bout say 2 hours?!? fuck... was pretty pissed when i saw lots of baldie assholes cutting the queue...
but anyway it was quite happening... the music was good... the place was cool... and there were loads of guys... *grins* was being pretty cheeky on that day... cause firstly brother wasn't there... and secondly... was just being cheeky that day.. haha...
anyway lots of guy wanted to know chel, and hmm... according to her lots of guy wanted to dance with me?
couldn't really be bothered...
(there were loads of details but i'll skip them all until...) we left the place and went to mac's for a drink... then we headed home... at the taxi stand chel saw the guy who talked to her inside, and well there's this guy (let's call him blackie) who wanted to dance with me said bye... i don't know how but we ended up talking to each other... then went to swensen's for supper and stuff... chatted lots... and we went home together in a cabby after that... he's cute... hee... and well fun to be with... the next day, which is sunday, we ended up smsing each other from bout 6pm till 11.30 pm... btw he's a soldier... hee...
then on monday he could come out for a while... so after i finished trg... i brisk walked and ran to the station, took a train to meet him... so there i ate... we talked and stuff.... then we both took a cabby and i sent him back before i head home... talked loads, then reached his camp.... before i knew it... he kissed me on the cheek and left... and i seriously was in shock? i didn't even had the time to react the cab left already... i even wanted to ask the cab driver, if he did kissed me... was pretty hard to get to sleep on that day... then the next day, he could book out again *smiles*.. met him in town with his camp-mates... had dinner, then we went for a walk... we just walked around and talking... was trying to know him better before anything else... then we sat down outside tangs where... i sort of confess?? i told him that i'm slowly falling for him... and he said 'me too'.. and gave me a peck.. *melts* i just felt totally weak on my knees... then we held hands and hmm...... he sent me home...
gosh... haven't really been in a relationship for a long time... but it felt nice... really nice...
geez.... am feeling so loved now... "p